Remember When....

Morning After

I wake up next to Meagan in her bed. I see that Meagan had already been smoking so I joined her. After smoking for a little bit she made me a breakfast burrito with eggs, bacon and sausage. She also added salsa inside with multiple types of hot sauces. We exchanged casual conversation and then I remembered that no one knew where I was so I went to get my phone.

Mom missed call (17) & voicemail (13)
Dad missed call (21) & voicemail (12)
Caylen missed call (5) & voicemail (5)
Lynds missed call (12) & voicemail (3)

I started freaking out so I got ready and left before I had a chance to say anything to Meagan. Apparently I was speeding on my way home because I got stopped by a cop.

"License and registration please." Said the cop

I fumbled to get the information not realizing that I was still extremely high. I gave him the information with a shaky hand.

"Ma'am have you been smoking marijuana today?"

I just decided to take the L. "Yes sir, I have."

"I'm going to have you to step out of the car."

I do as he said and feel the cuffs tighten around my wrists. He puts me in the back of his car, has my jeep towed and calls my parents. He ends up taking me in for booking and I stayed there for at least 2 hours. My mom came and bailed me out.

"Kelsey Marie! What were you thinking?!" She slaps me on the back of my head as we walk out the door.

The drive home was awkward until my mom broke the silence.

"Your father is going to be very upset with you."

I sunk lower into the seat of the car and sighed.

"You should know better Kelsey. We don't care if you do stupid things like this but at least be responsible enough to know that you shouldn't drive while under the influence."

I looked at her shocked because she basically just gave me permission to do illegal things like smoke weed.

When we got home my dad was at the front door waiting for me and my mom to get back. I step out of the car and lower my head to resemble I was ashamed.

"Kelsey Marie I am very disappointed in you." My dad said as soon as I approached him.

"Dad I know. I know better. I shouldn't have been so irresponsible I know. I didn't not intend to get into trouble I just needed to let go because my girlfriend cheated on me and another girl was giving me the attention I wanted. So I'm sorry I messed up it won't happen again but I don't regret it."

My parents just stood there looking at me in silence. The longer we stare at each other the less firm their faces.

"Can I go up to my room or is there something we still need to talk about?" I asked my parents and they still stood there in silence. My parents looked at each other without saying a word so I just walked up to my room.

About an hour went by and my mom came and knocked on my door. I get up and open the door for her with tears stained on my face.

"Tell me what happened with Caylen?" She asked quietly as she walked into my room, shutting the door behind her.

I looked at her and tears started forming in my eyes again. She gave me a sympathetic look and next thing I knew she was holding me while I sobbed in her arms.

I step back, wiped the tears from my face and start, "While I was getting my tattoo, my phone was on silent and since I left without her knowing, she probably woke up panicking. So I guess she called my phone a bunch but of course I didn't answer because Lyndsey had all my focus and attention. After Lyndsey left, I looked at my phone and thought I'd better go see Caylen before she freaks out more. I walked into her room and she was kissing some blonde chick. I ran out of her house and she ran after me. She was trying to apologize but I didn't want to hear it so I took off the ring she gave me and threw it at her. I got in my car and drove off. The tattoo artist was flirting with me and seemed pretty chill so I called her and went to her place. We talked and smoked because she saw I was hurting." I look into my moms eyes before I continue, "I wanted to disappear mom. No I'm not saying I wanted to kill myself but I wanted to get so lost that no one ever found me." As I finish saying what happened a last final tear drops down my face.

Me and my mom had a long talk about the choices I made. We ended up getting ice cream and she called Lyndsey over because I couldn't tell her myself. Lyndsey came over with a carton of half baked ice cream. We spent the day watching movies and she ended up leaving around 10 the next morning. At about 11:39AM, there was a knock on the door.