The omega's secret

Being to scared

Delirious POV

I turn and look to Cartoonz his face showing worry, confusion and a bit of happiness. Cartoonz is worried for the bite on my neck is deep. He's confused because I was scared of Vanoss but ran in to his arms anyway and now he's happy probably because Vanoss called me mate and is being protective. 

I turn back to Vanoss and see his eyes. Vanosses eyes looked like the eyes of an alpha who would kill anyone who gets to close. Seeing those eyes made me feel protected even if the one he's protecting me from is someone who will never hurt me. I sit up trying to get Vanoss to look to me but before I could Ohm walks in and see's the blood from my neck.       

Ohm moves closer but Vanoss growls out. "I don't want you as my mate! I don't need you!" Vanoss said looking to Ohm as he pulled me closer. I feel myself getting angry thinking back to when he said something like that to me. I push away from Vanoss. "What are you saying!? You're the one who said Ohm will make a great mate for you! Your also the one who pushed me away! But now you want me!?" I yelled finally regaining my senses.  Vanoss jumps looking to me then he turns to look to Ohm and Cartoonz and sees them moving closer.       

Vanoss grabs my hand gently pulling it. Moving in front of me so he's separating me from Cartoonz and Ohm. "I just wanted to see if you'd get jealous....I know it was stupid but.....I didn't know what to do. You went and mated with someone else for f*ck sake's!" I growl pulling my hand from his grip. "And you mated with a f*ckton of others! knowing full well that I was your mate! What? Didn't like the fact that I was an Omega? Well I still am! So what changed!?"  Vanoss grabs on to my arms. "What changed is the fact that I'm f*cking in love with you! With you gone I couldn't sleep. I had to f*ckin sleep in here where your scent still lingers. But that didn't help! All I was thinking about was the fact that you could be saying I love you to someone other than me! Knowing this I wanted to kill whoever it is but that wont make you comeback to me!"                

I push away glaring at him. "So what, You want me to take you back just because your feelings are hurt!? What about me!? When you rejected me for being an omega there was no 'I'll still love you even if your an omega' was there!? I even tried to make you take me back but seeing how easy it is for you to hold on to someone else. I really cant see myself loving you again or even trusting you. I loved you more than you deserved and you hurt me more than I can take." 

I turn away from Vanoss not wanting to look at him. 'What was I thinking!? Know matter what I do I'll still be an omega and a omega is the one thing Vanoss will never love about me. I don't want to but I need to say something to make Vanoss give up on me.'  I look up to Cartoonz and see he has a worried look so does Ohm. 'I'm sorry guys but I don't want to be hurt again.' I close my eyes and tell myself that I don't need Vanoss that I was doing just fine by myself. 

I open my eye's feeling calmer and look to Vanoss and whispered to him. "I'm going to have Cartoonz's baby." *PAIN*Next thing I know. I fall to the floor grabbing  on to my mark feeling pure pain coming from it. I look for Vanoss and see him stand up. His eye's are pure gold. "Sh!t...This f*cking hurts." I said as I try to sit up. Cartoonz and Ohm run up to me. "Del whats wr..." *Smack* I look up and see Vanoss pining Cartoonz to the ground. "I'm going to f*cking kill you!"        

Ohm jumps up and try's to pull Vanoss off of Cartoonz. "Vanoss calm down!" Vanoss pulls his arm from Ohms grip and starts to hit Cartoonz again. "Vanoss stop!" I yelled as I try to push him off of Cartoonz. Vanoss stops and turns to me looking to my stomach growling. "You love him that much!? What about me!? I'm your mate! I want you to have my child not his!" I jump in shock and look to Ohm. Ohm's giving me a pissed off look. "What the f*ck Delirious! Why did you go and tell him that!"    

Vanoss growls "Don't you dare yell at my mate!" Cartoonz pushes Vanoss off of him. "Don't you dare yell at mine!" Vanoss bares his teeth "Who are you calling yours!? You went and marked and mated with my mate and got him pregnant! But here you are trying to make Ohm yours too!" Cartoonz looks to me. "Del why the hell are you lying about something like that? Are you trying to push Vanoss away? What for?"  

Vanosses eye's go wide then turns to me. "Your not pregnant?" I look down. "Del and I didn't mate. I may have marked him but it didn't work and we didn't go to far." I start to bite my lip. "Don't push me away." Vanoss said as he moved closer. I look up with tears running down my face. "Don't push you away!? You may want me now but what about later are you going to act like you cant remember!? And i'm an omega! Omega the ones everyone sees as weak, slutty and never good enough to be a mate! And I know you look at me and see the same thing everyone else does!"    

Vanoss pull's me in to a hug as I kick and punch yelling at him to let me go. "I never looked to you and thought of any of those things! Every time I seen you I thought 'I don't want to hurt him. am I going to see him laugh his cute laugh. How long can I stay besides him. Is he ever going to look to me and say I love you too!' So please tell me Delirious. Do you love me? or..." Vanoss bites his lip.   

I look to Cartoonz and Ohm seeing there faces telling me that it's my choice. I then turn to Vanoss seeing tears in his eye's there also full of worry but I know he's hanging on to any kind of hope there is. "Vanoss....I...I don't love you...I'm to scared to."