i will drag my body up to higher ground,
take it from the sea, away from that wreckage
and give it to you, if only i could,
a new chest where tumours don't bloom
in silence like those lilies at night;their funeral petals are damp
in a dream of a world
where the blades did not cut you free
of that mass,and somewhere: like mother, like daughter,
i might see you in the mirror
and my breasts will follow in betrayal
of their body;it was like mother like daughter
when those weeds took root in her brain
(and i can't imagine her screams)and the morphine, the clinical white
and all those who are dying
in chairs in this room beside us:
we try not to hear their coughs
or see their faces slack with pain --we squeeze each other's hands
(like mother like daughter)
and i think of nanny's screaming,
the wire of my bra, oestrogen
and your bare scalp, the machine
that beeps heavily beside you-- i swallow a sob
for that day when --i'd give it to you, if only i could,
a new chest where tumours don't bloom
in the dark of your organs and tissues
i wish it were enough, i would -- i would --(08/10/2017)
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THE OCEAN
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