Shadow | BTS

8

Tomorrow at 12am in Cafe Rosso!

I wrote like this in our 'gang of brothers' group in messenger. I was feeling very tired from all the thoughts in my head. The truth is that things like these killing people. And I believe it killed me in some ways.. I wasn't sure what I'm doing but I couldn't let this idea. I was ready to do it on any coast and I knew what it can cost very well.

When I started feeling dizzy I finally paid for my whiskey.

I closed doors of the bar I stayed with my thoughts again.

but why? Maybe she really loves you.. What if she is the only one you are feeling good with? What if you are feeling the same.. Perhaps you can't recognize it yet? This is not a bullsh*t Jin, you are just one step away from where you won't find the way back. Just throw this idea from your head before it kills you.

I kicked a yellow bottle on the ground. When I lifted my head near the street where I saw a red light in a traffic light.

"Wow, this car passed by me very fast" I murmured.

**

When I finally woke up I was feeling better. The clock showed 11am which means I had only one hour till our meeting. The problem is that I didn't care about that hahah. I wanted just lay in my warm bed and listen to the music or read a book.

I took my phone from catchall because I wanted to check my messages.

hey Jin, I haven't seen you for ages, wanna meet tonight? :> Misun. It was the first message who popped in front of my eyes. She was annoying actually.. I met her in a club before 3 months and I regret it already because everything ended.. ahh nevermind.

I miss those days when we were spending our days together, call me. :( Sooyun.

and I had about 10 similar texts like this in my phone. I started laughing from all those girls. They are really crazy. It is so unfair I have never participated in the most attractive Korean guys elections..

Finally I took my favorite grey color long-sleeved shirt and black jeans with black socks. I tried to do everything very fast and after some time I was ready. I looked at the mirror for the last time and I smiled while managing my hair.

**

"Jin! We are here!" I heard Namjoon's voice when I entered the cafe. He was sitting with Hoseok and had some papers on the table. I guess they were dicussing about something.

"Brothers!" I came and hugged Namjoon and Hoseok.

"Why did you invite all of us here Jin?" Hoseok asked. I don't know why but he seemed a bit nervous. I couldn't see his happy face with a huge smile now what seemed very strange for me.

"I want to wait for the others" I replied. "What is this?" I pointed my finger towards those papers on the table.

"This is nothing, nothing" Namjoon said to me very fast and grabbed documents as soon as possible. He put everything in his brown bag.

"I won't eat it, don't worry" I tried to joking and started laughing. But when I realised no one is laughing with me I stopped. "Is everything fine?" I asked.

"Yes, sure. Why?" Hoseok replied with a serious face.

"You both are so mysterious so I just thought" I started talking.

"No no, after 10 minutes we are going out of the city with Namjoon. You know.. Job. We have to meet one client" Hoseok said and finally he smiled a bit. Finally!

"Oh, so I'm disturbing you" I confused.

"It is okay Jin.. That's not your fault these 4 are always late" Namjoon added. With those words suddenly Jungkook came to cafe and started searching for us. I waved him several times. Jungkook was wearing his blue jeans with white shirt and black jacket. I can't remember the day he was wearing something else. Oh yes, he had his black hat on head too.

"Hyungs" Jungkook said and hugged us.

"How is your sister Eunseo noona?" I asked our little maknae.

"She is fine hyung, thank you for asking" he replied politely.

"Did she already.." started asking again but suddenly Hoseok interrupted me.

"Seriously you are going to talk about her when I'm here?" he raised his voice.

"What's wrong? I just want to know how is her sister" I replied with a serious and surprised face. I was a surprised how sensitive Hoseok reacted. I understand what he went through but it is the time to forget everything already.

"Hoseok, my brother.. You know it wasn't her fault" Jungkook said.

"You better shut up" Hoseok replied very rough. "Namjoon, we have to go already" he said and went outside. He was so angry and emotional. Hoseok even didn't say goodbye to us.

"Next time avoid this topic, I said you he is not over yet. Jungkook.. Do not be angry at him give him more time" Namjoon told and put his hand on Jungkook's shoulder. "Okay, good luck, we will be back soon" he added while shaking our hands.

"Heyyyy, where are you going??" I heard Tae's voice. He came here with Yoongi and Jimin. Tae seemed to be very happy and almost healthy. He had just one patch on his right cheek and not a big bruise near his eye. It is better like this then how he looked like, I thought.

"We have to go now with Hoseok, have fun boys" Namjoon shouted and followed Hoseok.

"You are looking good" I said to Tae.

"Not better than you" he smiled.

"Actually yes" I replied and started smiling also. It was funny because not only girls are going crazy because of me hahaha.

"So why did we come here?" Yoongi asked me and made me become serious again.

"Sit down, Jiminssi.. Tae.. You both also" I said.

Now everybody was focusing only on me. Jungkook with Yoongi were looking at me with no emotions. Tae was looking at me very intently and Jimin.... He just concentrated his stare at me which was surprising.

"Before judging me listen me till the end very carefully" I started. "I know what I'm offering, I'm not a crazy and I know how much I'm risking. If you do not want to join I fully understand you. I don't want you to risk for me. Why I'm suggesting this? Because you all having problems with money and I'm having problems with myself. I always wanted to get everything, at any coast" I said.

"Hyung?" Jimin asked very quietly.

"There is one painting which is worth a lot of money. You even can't imagine about how much I'm talking. A huge huge amount" I added.

"Are you offering us.." Tae started saying.

"I'm afraid yes and I know what you all are thinking now" I said while looking at each other.

"Forget it, I'm not with you" Yoongi said immediately.

"It is okay, I understand you" I replied.

I saw how Jungkook was looking at me. I guess he is so disappointed right now. Jungkook was shocked. I should be like example for him because I was the oldest one but I don't know what happened. It was just me who got used to get everything what I needed.

"This painting is worth more than $104 million" I added and I could see the way Yoongi raised his head. He was surprised, the same like I was when I first heard it.

"Oh my God" Tae replied with a sparkle in his eyes.

Our unpleasant silence was disturbed when Yoongi's phone started ringing. He took his phone very fast and read the message. I saw how Yoongi's face changed after reading it and I was wondering why. He started wandering around the cafe with his eyes.

"Let's do this" he finally said while looking very deep and straight to my eyes.