Have you ever loved someone so strong that even the smallest idea of hurting them made you feel the worst human on Earth? Have you ever felt how strong you are falling for someone and the idea of loosing everything you have built together made your heart shaken? To feel loved, to give everything to the right person and ask nothing in return, to even feel completed at some point. We all sacrifise ourselves.. for him.. for her.. for them.. for love..
love, love, love..
and if you ask if it's worth it.. I just want to be able to promise you that it really is.
JUNGKOOK'S POV
"Hyung! Wake up hyung!" I was shouting at Hoseok who turned off for a couple minutes. After he attacked Yoongi I thought I won't be able to stop him.
"Wake up!!" was my last words when he finally opened his eyes. He was breathing heavily with both of his hands still on the floor. "Hyung, I'm sorry you had to find this way" I couldn't even find a proper words for this situation.
I have never thought that the guy, my older brother will do something horrible like this. I wanted to punch him by myself because this is not how you treat your loved ones.
"I'm going to finish this fucker" Hoseok said while slowly getting up. "I'm going to find him and finish him!" he shouted.
"Stop!" I blocked the road for Hoseok. "You need to calm down, there is nothing we can change about it now" I was trying so hard all stressed. I could feel my sweat going down through my face.
"And you.. You knew all this. You knew this all the time. You were looking to my eyes and you were lying to me! How could you do that to me?" he pushed me. I saw tears in his eyes. I was almost crying by myself.
"HOW COULD YOU HIDE FROM ME THAT I HAVE A FUCKING CHILD?! HOW?!"
He was shouting on me, screaming on me and calling me the worst words I have ever heard. Some meaning of them I really didn't know.
"You know how much I loved your sister, how much I was willing to do for her, how much I wanted to be happy with her"
Hoseok was crying and I was laying on the ground crying too.
"I knew she never loved that fucking engineer, she just followed what your parents told her. How could she do that to me? How did she let me to miss my child's first steps? His first words? How could she steal those precious moments from me?"
I could not find any comfort words for Hoseok anymore. I just had to let him say everything he wanted. He just had to let his emotions out.
"Is he calling that bastard a dad?!" Hoseok grabbed me by the collar and punched to the wall. I moaned. "Is he calling him?!" he was shouting absolutely without any control.
"Please" I was crying still and begging him to stop. After some seconds he released me. I think he also felt really sorry for me, deep down he knew.
"Get the fuck out of here" Hoseok commanded.
"I beg you don't do anything stupid hyung" I finally spoke.
"Get the fuck out of here!!" he shouted again and pointed at doors.
I wiped my tears and left. I was lost. This was never my intention to do. I felt like a shit. Like a shitty person, like a horrible friend. I felt like I was put in this awful situation where I just had to stay silent and now I was blamed for everything. I never meant to do any harm to anyone.
I was just an average guy who was working in a mall 4 times a week and renting a flat with Jiminssi.
I came to the nearest bar to get myself drunk. I could not fight with this feeling. This was too much for me. The only one friend I could talk about it was Yoongi.. but he betrayed me.. He betrayed my sister and our Hoseok. This all was so wrong.
my hyung betrayed me..
"Hard day?" a barista guy asked.
"Worse than that" I answered.
"A broken heart?" he asked again and gave me a shot of vodka.
"Worse" I replied and drank it immediately. "Two lost friendships" I added.
suddenly my phone started ringing and I saw JIMIN'S name on the screen. I declined the call.
not long after my phone started ringing again.
"I'm not really in a mood to talk, Jimin" I picked the phone and told him.
"It's about Taehyung" I heard stressed Jimin's voice.
"What about him?" I asked.
"He is gone" Jimin said leaving me speechless for a second.
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