Lost in love (a Dolan twin fan fiction )

Chapter 7: Scars

After that night we all talked a lot more and got even closer but then I realized Lizz doesn't actually live here she is just visiting but I have yet to know when she leaves, I obviously don't want her to leave but I want to know when so we can do everything before she leaves. Lizz was still asleep so I walked down stairs to see my mom in the kitchen on her phone leaning on the island. "earth to mother your daughter who you love oh so much is here and would like to ask you something" I said getting her attention on me and not the phone. "Yes honey what is it?" I honestly got a little sad thinking bout Lizz Having to leave I was just hoping she wouldn't say any time soon. " how long is Lizz gonna be able to stay here?" My moms face formed a very straight face I could clearly see she was trying to figure something out. "I think she leaves in 3 months. why?" My face dropped when she said that and I was trying to think of all the things we could do until then. "Just asking looks like I have a lot of planning to now." I ran up the stairs and ran back into my room and jumped on Lizz waking her up "Just five more minutes!!" Lizz groaned as she turned away from me " No get up we have to plan out stuff before you leave" Immediately she shot up "When do I leave!!!?" I started busted out laughing "3 Months" then both of our faces got sad and we then started thinking of things to do within the 3 months. "Oh I got it what if today we go to the beach and have a nice time and then we can go out to eat and just walk around Hollywood and see what else we can do?" I said shooting up from my spot with sudden excitement. "sounds great lets do it!" Me and Lizz got ready and I put on light water proof makeup like mascara and eyeliner.  I threw on my bikini and then a burgundy floral crop top paired with high waisted jean shorts. Me and Lizz were ready to go and then we told mom we were leaving and then headed to the beach. When we got there we set up our towels and then headed to get a smoothie. When we got back we decided to go out into the water. We both undressed and then ran to the water we were swimming and playing and everything and then decided to walk around the beach. we walked all around talking and then we walked under a giant deck when we walked under there we saw a guy and girl down here who were kissing but it looked super familiar, it was Grayson. A tear fell down my face and I dropped my stuff and ran away crying he saw me and tried to run after me calling my name but I never stopped I ran for as long as I could eventually I didn't know where I was.

**Graysons POV**

 I was at the beach getting a smoothie and I ran into my crazy ex Linda and when I say crazy i mean CRAZY she said she wanted to talk to me so I said yes and she walked us under a deck "I missed you baby" baby wtf is she talking about "Umm excuse me I'm not your 'Baby' I don't like you anymore we are over back off" she looked at me trying to be seductive but it just wasn't working "oh come on baby don't you miss me? you know you do." I tried to step back a bit as she was getting closer but she suddenly forced her lips onto mine and I tried pulling back but she was digging her nails into my neck so it hurt but all of he sudden I heard sniffling and then I saw Lara and she started running and I ran after her for as long as I could but lost her. I felt so unbelievably bad I honestly didn't mean to kiss her. I really screwed up, I really like Lara I-I think I might love her. God she is never gonna believe me I have to try my hardest to fight for her. I went to her house and they said she wasn't there and I checked everywhere but I couldn't find her but I thought of one last place where she might be. The Skate park.  I ran to the SP and I saw her on the ramp with her legs hanging down and her hands tracing her thighs with tears in her eyes. I walked up to her and sat down next to her. "Please hear me out... I didn't kiss her she threw her tongue down my throat and I tried to pull away but then you saw us I didn't want the kiss I don't even like her she is  just my CRAZY ex girlfriend, I promise I would never intentionally do something to hurt you I really like you and I want us to work , I know I really screwed up but I am really sorry please believe me.." I looked down at what she continued to trace on her thigh and it was scars of previous cuts. "Did you do this" I said placing my hand on her thigh in a comforting way as tears began to slip out of my eyes.

***Lara's POV***

I sat there tracing my scars just remembering everything bad in my life and every time I was used or mistreated at this moment I really wanted to self harm again but I couldn't because first I didn't have anything with me or around me and second I promised I would stop but how do they expect me to keep cool and not do it when I am in a really hard place and get my heart ripped out again or used again. At that moment Grayson found me and of course I was mad but I really like him and thought we could actually work but like everything else in my life he left.  he started talking about how sorry he was and what actually happened most of me wanted to forgive him but part of me was also scared. I am tired of being hurt. Why can't there be anyone out there who will actually love me and not fuck up or just get stay by my side. my thoughts were interrupted by Grayson grabbing my thigh and feeling my scars "Did you do this?" when he asked this I didn't exactly want to tell him even though he already knew but I didn't know if I could trust him anymore. I really want to but I also really want to do what good for me. seeing him come all this way to find me and hearing him explain himself even though he didn't have to. "I forgive you" I said with a tear falling out of my eye "Graysons face immediately shot up from my thigh to my face "W-what? R-really?" he smiled really big and was so happy " Yes just promise me never again?" I said looking down.He places his hand under my chin raising it and looked me in the eyes while saying "I promise never ever again..Always and Forever ." I smiled and we leaned in and kissed but this kiss was really passionate it was like I could feel how sorry he was and how much we missed each other. I guess he was what is right for me...

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Hey guys so sorry for the long time wait for an update I know I always have an excuse but I don't this time I just always told myself to but I forgot hope you like the new chapter.

~Emma <3