The Third Bella

Chapter 31: Exhaustion

This world that we, as wrestlers, live in, is insane. You have no time to comprehend anything that goes on in your life, because you're constantly moving. One city to the next, one state to the next, one country to the next, and it all feels the same.

The sights, the sounds, the people, you barely experience them because once you get somewhere you have to go somewhere else. So when we're asked,'Oh how do you like this place or the city or the country', you lie. You say it's beautiful, you say the people are beautiful, but reality is, you don't know a single thing about the place or its people.

It's not our fault the job is demanding. If you're not wrestling, you're doing interviews, you're going to signings, you're doing podcast or talk shows, you're dealing with merchandise, or you're in a business meeting. It never ends, but in the end, it's worth it.

All the endless hours, flights to places you're staying in for two hours, and the restless days just so you can fit everything in, is worth it. Because at the end of the day, you get to do what you love most, wrestle.

I felt like the whole world was against me. Anyone I talked to, I rubbed the wrong way. Paige, Nikki, Seth, and Roman were all pissed at me, and I didn't have the time of the day to fix it. To make matters worse, Finn was even more busy than usual, so I was left by myself a lot of the time. Bayley and Sasha were apart of the title picture and extremely busy, so I decided to call my brother, JJ.

"Gabriella are you out of your damn mind?"

"What?"

"You told off Nicole because she gave you an invite. Are you serious?!"

"First of all, calm down and second, it was a pity invite!"

"Apologize to our damn sister, or I'm gonna tell mom."

"We're in our thirty's, mom isn't allowed to be a threat!"

"Not in my book. Call Nikki," he said then hung up.

He was right and I knew he was right, but I wasn't gonna listen to him. My stubbornness outshined the rest of instincts, so I continued to be upset. That was until I got a call from Brie.

"Hey Brianna."

"Just fix it. For the love of god, fix it. You both are being childish and you both love each other. Neither of you are going to call the other first. So when you come to Arizona tomorrow, you're fixing it! Understood?"

"Yes, bye."

I didn't understand. Not the whole Nikki situation, but the rest of it. For some odd reason, it all hit me. The company hadn't used me properly in months, but what felt like years. I let stupid drama consume my life, and the only headlines I was making was about my personal life not my talent or my career.

At that moment I grew tired, I deserved to be written about. I deserved to be the first women to be in whatever match, I deserved to break break barriers, and I deserved to be champ. I ran to Stephanie's office and barged in without warning.

"I have worked my ass off all around the world! I've been champion everywhere I go! When I step foot in any company, it automatically becomes mine! I'm tired and I deserve better! Give me better!"

"Finally," Mick Foley, the Raw GM, chuckled.

"Huh?"

"We've been waiting for you to say something," he explained,"We know you deserve better, but we were just waiting for you realize."

"We have storylines on top of storylines for you Gabi, and they're all yours," Stephanie said.

"Your first one starts on Monday, after Battleground. Get ready," Mick handed me the script and sent me on my way.

I felt better, but something was missing. I had to deal with something head on and I couldn't remember what it was. Then that something happened to hit me, literally.

I was walking down the hall and someone bumped into me, and there he was, that something, Dean. "Oh sorry Gabi, didn't see you there,"

"Ya, it's whatever. Move, please," I said, trying to get the something out of my way.

"You know eventually you're gonna forgive me, right? I mean there was a time where you thought of me as your best friend."

"There was a time where I thought of you as the love of my life. Things change."

I walked away from my something, hoping to somehow forget about it.

~The Next Day After Raw~

Raw had just ended, so Finn and I️ were heading out to go meet my family for dinner. Of course, I️ was dreading it since I️ would have to talk to Nicole. I️ knew it would an awkward encounter where both of us would be forced to apologize, and I️ just didn't want to deal with it. Honestly, if Fergal wasn't going I️ probably would've skipped out on it.

Eventually we arrived at the restaurant and saw my family sitting in a reserved area. We greeted everyone, but before we began to order, all the kids went outside. Nikki and I stood across from each other, as Finn, JJ, and Brie stood around us.

"Are either of you gonna say anything? Because we don't have all year," JJ said.

"Ya, whatever, I'm sorry," I spoke up.

"Hm about what exactly," Nikki asked.

"Fine. I'm sorry for assuming that you gave me a pity invite. I'm sorry for overreacting about the invite. But I'm not sorry for going off about it. The fact that you felt the need to come rescue me is petty, and I'm not sorry for letting you know."

"And I'm sorry for nothing, because I did nothing wrong," Nikki said.

"Oh come on. Just apologize to Gabi so we can all go eat," Finn said.

"I'm sorry for trying to rescue you, and treating you like a child."

After everything was said and done, we all went inside and enjoyed a nice dinner as a family. We finished dinner and were about to head out, when I remembered something.

"I completely forget my duffle bag at the arena. Finn, I'll get a cab and meet you back at the hotel."

"Bye Gabi," my family shouted as I ran off to my cab and went to the arena.

I ran in and went to my locker room where my bag was. I was surprised that it was still there, but grabbed it and left the arena. On my way out I, again, bumped into Dean.

"Oh, you have got to be kidding me!"

"That excited to see me huh?," he said.

For whatever reason, I started to tear up.

"Gabi, are you-," I interrupted.

"Don't. Please just don't say anything," I said while trying to control my tears.

"Okay."

"I'm just exhausted. My family is exhausting. Wrestling, though I love it, is exhausting. And you, hating you is the most exhausting. I don't wanna do it anymore, but I have to. So please, let me hate you, and let me get over you. I promise you it's for the best."

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Hi guys, sorry I've been MIA for awhile. I'm on the basketball team and getting ready for finals, plus family's been over, so my life is a little crazy. Thank you all for being so patient and still showing interest in this book even after all this time. I never thought it would've gotten this amount of support, so I thank you for that. The next chapter will be out as soon as I can put it out, but in the meantime I hope you enjoyed this one. Much love, and I'll keep you updated on the upcoming chapter.

~P