The Third Bella

Chapter 33: Indenial

"Gabi you're not serious!"

"Why would I lie about this?!"

"Well how far along are you? Is the baby okay? You've been drinking and wrestling that must have some effect on it!"

"I don't know Fergal! As soon as they told me I was pregnant I lied about an emergency and ran the hell outta there!"

"This is insane! What are you gonna do Gabi?"

"I mean you're injured so we have to focus on getting you healed."

"Are you serious? You are thinking of prioritizing my injury over an actual child?!"

"You know what, I guess we're both gonna be on the shelf for a while," I said then sat down next to Fergal, laying my head on his healthy shoulder.

~The Next Day~

I woke up and was throwing up like crazy. Fergal's parents were really concerned, but we brushed it off saying it was something bad I ate. I was terrified. I didn't know if I should tell people or if the baby was even okay. I didn't know if I should call Hunter and tell him that I'm out for nine months. I didn't know if I should tell Dean.

Right when I thought pieces were finally falling into place, everything turned to shit. Fergal and I tried to talk about how to deal with all of this, but his parents were there, so we were limited with how long we could talk at a time. I was extremely stressed and didn't know if I was happy about the fetus growing inside me.

"Okay you know I love your parents, but when are they going back to Ireland?"

"In six days."

"Okay so, after they leave I have two weeks to get my shit together before I have to go back."

"Are you, um, gonna keep, you know, the baby," Fergal asked while avoiding eye contact.

"I guess, I mean I've always wanted to be a mom, I just didn't think that this is how it would happen."

"No matter what, I'm here for you."

"I know, that's why I've kept you around for so long," I said smirking, causing Finn to chuckle.

~Six Days Later~

Finn and I had just dropped his parents off at the airport and he had to go to therapy, so I dropped him off and stayed at home by myself.

Pregnancy was really testing my patience. I was throwing up ever hour, had to pee every five minutes, and was extremely emotional; I threw a pillow at the tv because a character had pissed me off. And of course, at the back of my mind was having to fess up to Dean.

I was afraid if I told him and let him back into my life that I would fall down the same rabbit hole I worked so hard to get out of. But I couldn't not tell him, he has a right to know about his child and have the opportunity to raise him or her.

When I picked up Finn from his session I was still in deep thought about everything, and he could tell.

"Are you okay? Do you need to vomit?"

"I'm fine, I know now that I have to tell Dean and that I can't rob him of this opportunity."

"That's mature of you, but are you sure you want him to be part of this lass?"

"Fergal it's not my choice. If I tell him and he wants out fine, but I can't make that choice for him. I'm just scared of him being around all the time and what that would do to me mentally."

"All I know is that you need to go to the doctor. Gabi you need to have regular appointments for your sake and your baby's."

I went to the doctor and was told that I was six weeks along and that baby was healthy. I was relieved and beyond grateful, but I couldn't stop thinking about how I had to tell everyone, and that my career had to be put on hold. Obviously I was going to love this baby with my whole heart but that doesn't take away the love that I have for wrestling.