The Way To New Beginnings

chapter 3

After a difficult struggle, they agreed to accept me as a regular elementary school, provided that all of my grades at the end of the year would be high .

I was an A student and good student and I bought a good certificate saying that I had no other problems. This proved to them how wrong they were, at the end of the year they told my mother to go to school to the principal's office.

the principal approached her and shook her hand and told her

"I'm so sorry for what I said then that your daughter does not fit my school she definitely goes up to second grade".

My mother smiled triumphantly and said, "When you want something, then there is nothing that stands in the way of the will".

In elementary school, i did not have only Vicky. There were other girlfriends, but Vicky was the most reliable. What to do? She's like a sister, the sister I do not have, so I hoped one day in the fourth my brother would be a sister for a change but it did not happen, I was upset but today my little brother is the little prince of the family.

However, because of the low self-image of a fat girl in adulthood, I found comfort in food, too. I was so negative about myself, at that time I did not care what I look alike.

of course, in school, they also mocked me because I was a sensitive, weeping girl and a fat girl with crooked legs would call me names like "limp, crooked, fat."

Oh yeah they would imitate how I walk because my X legs would push me and waiting for me to cry And throw balls at me because it's just convenient and fun to see me crying and falling girl, oh yeah and how to call this concept bullying I would not hide , it hurts me I holding myself not to cry and when I get home and try to hide the tears from everyone and of course my mother noticed, and I told her is it true what they said about me in school?

Of course, my mother will come and support and say that "everything is okay with me Do not let them treat you that way"

 You want me to interfere and I always say no and why because it can help and destroy So I would prefer to do it myself

And you can say why you were not in therapy or support? It was in the late 90's It's not like the awareness that there is today that everything is known and it's okay to get help, which is why my family helped me with a lot of motivation and encouragement and support because I'm not a person who hides and does not talk and even though I try to hide what bothers me it just comes out I cannot lie about it, You see it on me and ask" if everything is okay"? And I would say" no", I think it's my strength I not to hide that it hurts and sad but it's okay to come and tell.
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