Austin | Post Malone X Reader

"I know you're watchin' (Y/n)"

" Why aren't you eating?" Austin asked. I looked at my plate. We were at a restaurant in Sweden and it was dark outside. We had both ordered a burger. The concert began in 2 hours.

"I'm not hungry" I lied. I could not get a bite down. I felt so depressed. I was hungry, but the burger reminded me of vomit in some way. Everything seemed disgusting. It was probably because of the things Karen told me about Austin.

"you're always hungry, man" Austin laughed. "are you sick?" his laughter faded as he noticed I looked away. "(y/n)?" he looked concerned at me.

"it's fine. Okay" I said and walked out of the restaurant, "I need to be alone".

"where are you going?" he yelled.

"nowhere" I whispered. As I approached the corner of the street I could feel someone tapping my shoulder.

"why are you mad ... or sad?" He looked down in my eyes. "or both" he held my shoulders so I couldn't go away. I just needed time to think, before I took a dumb decision. If he thought I was an object, and he could play with my feelings like that, then I would just leave him right away. He always did "romantic" things when a camera was pointed at us. The concert, in the plane, at Mexican Taco's, while we danced and etcetera.

"why did you wanted me to be here" I said "with you. Why did you bring me here" I asked. His blue eyes tried to figure out what was wrong. He opened his mouth after a long time, but I cut him off, "Because" tears began to rain down my cheeks, "If you only took me with you for propaganda or if you want to make your x jealous ... then"

"(Y/n)! - (Y/n) schhh" he took some of my hair behind my ear, "don't" he smiled. "Why do you think that?".

"Is it true?"

"why do you think such things" his voice began to sound mad. My shoulders were now free of his grip, and I ran away. I ran and ran. It began to rain, but I did not stop. I ran all the way to the hotel, and ran up the stairs to my room. I locked my door, and saw that Austin had send me messages.

Le Austin: I'm so sorry

Le Austin: Call me

Le Austin: let's talk

Le Austin: answer

Le Austin: are you coming to the concert ?

Le Austin: Where are you

Le Austin: (Y/n)!!!!!!!!!!111!!!

I opened Twitter, and saw that someone had filmed me while I was running.

@tumblrwannabe33 - @(Y/n)(L/n) as Forrest Gump XD #(ship name)

(Video)

I threw my phone into the wall and cried in my pillow for a long time. How could he do this to me? I asked him, and he did not answer like it wasn't something that was happening. I want to go home, but, I have no home. Home to Hila's food and Ethan's bad jokes.

I opened my computer. Opended twitch to see a live video from his concert by a fan. He was singing Déjà vu, but Justin wasn't there. I heard people scream our ship name.

"Tell me is that deja vu? 'Cause you want me and I want you. Tell me is that deja vu? 'Cause baby it ain't nothing new, no. Tell me is that deja vu? 'Cause you want me and I want you. Tell me is that deja vu? 'Cause baby this ain't nothing new, no" He sang good even dough he looked sad. The screen was pixilated, but I could still see that his facial expression was everything else than "happy".

The song ended and he gave the audience a sad smile. People was screaming, thank God not my name. Rockstar played. Fall apart. Congratulations. I heard them all. At the end of congratulations, he stopped the music in the start of Two Fingers.

"Can we turn of the music?" his voice was cracking "I want to say something". He took the microphone up, and walked around on the scene. All the lights went green, and the audience went silent. "I'm sorry if I've made you sad and mad" he began. The silent hotel room was filled with my thoughts and Austin's words.

"I've made someone really special really sad. The things you said was not real" My phone said a sound, and the displayer showed me a message from Karen.

Karen: Posty is talking about you. He's lying - why say it on stage, so everyone can hear it, when he could say it to you in person?

She was right. Dilemma. I did not answer her, but kept my eyes on the live video.

"You asked me a question. why did you bring me here - you said" The crowd screamed my name. "At first; it was because I wanted a travel-partner. I did not want to get bored, and you seemed like someone who was funny, intelligent, nice and cool - "my tears stopped pouring. "I'm still here with you ... because all of those things were true, and much more"

Karen: Don't trust him. Boys you know

"You're maybe asking, why I say this in front of people. Why I say this in front of thousand cameras - but It's because I'm not man enough to say it to your face."

Karen: He's such an idiot.

"I know you're watchin' (Y/n)" He said my fucking name, and the audience went crazy. They were all screamin "(ship name)" at the same time, like it was a rhythm.