Wishes May Come True...

I am not a boy/I am not a girl

This first part was written 7 months before the second part.

I am not a boy.

I am a girl,

who likes button downs

and beanies.

I want to cut off all

of my hair one day, 

and finally feel like 

myself

Instead of 

being what

everyone expects.

I want to 

Be beautiful,

in a way that is real

and honest

Because if 

I'm not,

then I'm not beautiful-

 I am just lying.

I am not a boy.

I am a girl,

that falls madly in love

with other girls.

Because holy frick.

It's like girls are 

some kind of

art.

And I have always been in love with art.

I am not a boy.

I am a girl,

that doesn't want to disappoint everyone.

But is so sick of disappointing herself.

And now for part two.  

I am not a girl.

I am a boy,

who likes button downs

and beanies.

At last I watched

as my hair fell to the floor.

Look in the mirror.

Hello there.

I am my own expectation.

Heck yes.

I am handsome.

In my very own way.

I am no longer lying.

My closet was too full

of the dresses I'll  never wear again,

for me to fit inside.

I am not a girl.

I am a boy.

that falls madly in love

with everyone.

Because people are 

just so great.

And I'm sorry to my missed opportunities,

that I was too bitter to see that.

I am not a girl.

I am a boy.

That is no longer

living his life,

For the rest of the world to enjoy.

AN:

Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Elias (Eel-eye-uhs). I am a transgender boy. I use He/They pronouns. I have written poetry for years under my deadname, but this is the REAL me.

It's nice to meet you, and thanks for reading, as always.

~Elias