I'm New To This

Chapter 5

Lance P.O.V

"Keith? I know I shouldn't say this but i-i-i think I needyoutowatchMarianatommorowtoo" I say the last part quickly oh god, Oh God, OH MY GOD I ALMOST TOLD HIM LOVE HIM WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. "Lance what? Even that was too fast for me" he looks at my madly blushing face in confusion "Oh, I just said I might need you to watch Mariana tomorrow as well if your free that is" I said at a regular pace "Okay, sure I'm free but why did you think you shouldn't say it" he tilted his head asking the one question that I didn't want to answer "Oh I don't know, how was your sleep?" I ask trying to switch the subject "NO!, Not this time Mclain. No hiding no changing the subject tell me what were you really going to..." I shove food in his mouth "I was going to say I was hungry but you would probably end up hitting me saying no duh" I say hoping he doesn't suspect anything "well no duh" he said while hitting me on the back of my head "SEE" I yell, he turns to me and chuckles "If you keep shouting Mari will never get to sleep" he said. His glorious smile turned into a frown as he was putting his shoes on to leave "Whats wrong Keith?" he looked at me then burst into tears "Hey whats wrong?" I ask wiping his tears "Can I stay here tonight?" he asks with new tears forming "Of course but you have to tell me why tomorrow and you also have to make breakfast" he sighed pulling his shoes off "Sure, I'm going to go have a shower" I hated the feeling I had in the pit of my stomach, something was wrong maybe I should have confessed, but what if he doesn't like me, WHAT IF HE DOSENT EVEN LIKE MEN! "Uh ya ok I'll leave a change of clothes on the bed" he hummed in response. he walks out of my room about twenty minutes later "So are you going to tell me why you asked to spend the night" he glared at my question "Are you going to tell me why you lied when you said you where hungry" I flinched and stare wide-eyed, did he know was he disgusted with me "Uhuh I didn't think so I'll tell you when you fess up about what you really where going to say" God why does he know me so well.

Keith's P.O.V

"i-i-i" what is he going to say, I hope he confesses all I want right now is to kiss his perfect lips. Boi was I wrong he made a few silly excuses and tried to act normal but I know better than that. I asked to stay because his question brought up memories I thought I forgot long ago and it scared me to be alone, I mean what if I relapsed and hurt my self or even attempted. So I thought it best to ask to stay before I do something I'll regret "I'll tell you if you tell me" I said to him smirking "Ugh really? why don't you go first" I roll my eyes at his plea "Ummmm no" I say sitting on his couch "I just don't think I'm ready to tell you yet, I promise I'll tell you soon" he wined looking at me as he kneeled on the ground in front of me giving me the puppy dog eyes "Plea-" "Fine" I say cutting his plea off, he shot up and sat next to me on the couch excitedly "Well after things with my dad was over I was put in a terrible foster home and that's about the same time I started self-harming, about two years later I had 11 attempts... and I guess bringing up my dad brought back memories I wanted to forget and I just thought if I was left alone I might relapse or attempt again. Their hap-" I was cut off by a sob and a giant warm hug "You can stay whenever you need to, I'll even stop asking questions" I smile "Thank you, you should get to sleep you work early tomorrow" he stands and stretches "Okay goodnight then, Keith"

(short chapter I know deal with it)