Hopeless(Karma x reader)

Chapter 16

I've got some writers block so my chapters may be shorter than normal sorry T~T
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3rd persons POV

It had be 2 weeks since you had all returned from the resort. Everyone was in class and (name) was about to start her new assassination attempt right....now.
Korosensei walked in, (name) than stood up to hand him something allowing herself to trip and a sickening crunch to ripple through the class room. Korosensei rushed to (names) side but once his tentacle touched her leg it burst, triggering more Anti-sensei BB's to land on him popping 3 tentacles. Korosensei tried moving back but stepped on another BB causing another tentacle to burst, the octopus than jumped right out of the window with a cry, commanding us all to clean up.
Whilst cleaning everyone was questioning you as to how you came up with that assassination attempt, you just shrugged "it's my job I should be able to do atleast this" it seemed to click in everyone that's right, she's considered the best assassin in the world. You were feeling kinda tired so made your way outside to your tree, yes you considered this tree yours now.
Once you were sat on a high branch you leaned back, bumping someone's chest than feeling arms snake around your waist, "hey (name) why'd you leave without me?" You relaxed recognising the voice, "Sorry Karma I just felt a bit...anxious. I'm not used to so many people, not many people knew I existed when I was a kid maybe 8-9 I was kind of a state secret, earths deadliest human, than I faked my death so no one could know i existed, and now everyone wants to be close and friendly. It's just completely new, no ones ever wanted to know me or be friends..." you felt the arms around you tighten. Turning you saw your love with a look of concern, seems your eyes were light blue as tears slipped from them. You hadn't even noticed them until Karma wiped them away. You smiled at him your eyes turning pink with love, kissing him gently on the cheek, "Karma?" He was playing with your hair "hmm?" "Do you know what it means to kill someone? To decide when that persons life ends?" He stopped playing with your hair and looked at you "no?" You continued to look in his eyes as yours turned grey "its thrilling and terrifying all at once, you know there going to die as soon as you set your eyes on them, even if it means ending your own life, which your always prepared for" you looked off into the distance "I've never been afraid to die and I think the only thing I fear is not fearing. Not caring about the outcome" Karmas eyes widened. "(Name)? What are you tryna say?" You looked back to him and said "I just haven't been able to stop thinking about that since I heard Irina say it, it's had me thinking, I've never been allowed the choice to decide what I fear, but now I think I might fear something" karma signalled you to continue "losing everyone I love all over again" Karma looked at you with sympathy which you hated "please don't give me that look Karma, I really don't want your pity, please" he scratched his neck nervously "sorry it's just, I was thinking about how you lost everyone around you that you cared about, and the same thing kinda happened to me, my parents stopped caring, and the only teacher I trusted dropped me as soon as I helped someone in need. Just because they were E-class" you hugged Karma smiling "we can have sucky lives together hmm?" You hugged him as he kissed your forehead "I really love you (name)" "I love you too Akabaka"
You and Karma had a long way to go trust wise, but right now in this very moment. You felt perfectly at peace.