Hopeless(Karma x reader)

Chapter 8

3rd persons POV

(Name) heard him loud and clear but still turned face shocked "w-what?" Karma gulped, but repeated his statement "(name) are you self-harming?" She giggled before waving him off "what are you talking about Karma, of course I'm not" her eyes turned orange and Karma knew she wasn't telling the truth, something about her fear stricken eyes told him that orange meant nervous, so Karma made his way to to (name). Pinning her between himself and the counter, usually she'd have pushed him off with ease, but, she was mentally weak right now. Being caught off guard gave him enough time to look at both of her thighs properly, also pulling up the sleeves on his shirt she had on. He now I understood why she wanted a long sleeve shirt from him.
To his horror, scars and cuts were littered across her body. His eyes pricked with tear, he had never known someone who actually self-harmed. He'd heard of it and thought those people were just weak, or attention seekers, but seeing it infront of hi, he just couldn't believe it.
(Name) had her her head down, eyes covered with her hair as she covered her scars and old cuts pathetically, even a fresh few she made from the blade in her bag this morning. Voice breaking she tried to respond to the situation"what? You think I'm some sort of freak, I'd understand why tho...I am..." Her eyes were royal blue once again, Karma was beginning to understand the colour of your eyes. Blue - meaning sadness and pain. He didn't know what to do, before he knew it, she'd run upstairs and gone into his room, than bathroom. Karma stood shocked before running upstairs to get her, he could hear her mumble in the bathroom and tried to listen. She seemed to be thinking out loud "1 for Crying in his arms yesterday 3 for not going home 6 for wearing his clothes 9 for letting him see 11 for feeling happy 15 for showing my weakness" he didn't understand why she was counting until she reached 9, he began to panic and shout "STOP (NAME), PLEASE DON'T DO THIS TO YOURSELF, I DON'T THINK YOUR A FREAK OR A MONSTER, I THINK YOUR BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT!!" He realised what he said as he blushed heavily. The door unlocked and out came (name), he blushed harder.

Karmas POV

I can't believe I said that, but atleast she came out her eyes are puffy i checked her arms and thighs but found no cuts "where?" She blushed and pointed to her hips. I blushed as well and nodded before grabbing her hand and bringing her into to the bathroom. I sat her down and grabbed the first aid kit, I got her to roll up her sleeves and asked "have you ever actually cleaned these" she only shook her head I wonder why she's not talking, I cleaned her cuts on her arms than her thighs, than looked at her "em... can I clean the ones on your hips?" I was blushing like crazy but she nodded, she stood up and pulled down the side of my boxers she wore. These  ones are definitely the worst, some even look infected. I finished cleaning them than put a couple bandages on each hip, I wrapped a bandage on both of her arms "why'd you start?" I looked at her and her eyes flashed green, greens new...hmm maybe disgust? But regardless she spoke quietly "when I was being trained...I kinda couldn't feel...anything, and it scared me, so I cut to feel pain...but quickly after some modifying, couldn't feel all that much pain, I continued regardless because it reminds me I'm still human.." I now understood why she wasn't speaking before, her voice. It sounded so broken and frail. Putting my hand on hers gently, I tried to reassure her "I understand, your secrets safe with me" she smiled at me, than had this mischievous look that scared me a little"you know Karma your pretty cute when you blush" she smiled again sweetly and I could feel my cheeks darken to the colour of my hair, her head tilted down allowing her (H/c) hair to cover her eyes "Karma, your the first person I feel like I can trust in a long time, and I'm completely terrified. For the longest time I always thought, they're all the same, everyone, but your different Karma *she placed her hand on my cheek* your unique" she looked up at me with pink eyes I wonder what pink means "(name) do you know what the colour pink means in your eyes?" She looked confused "they're pink? They've never been pink before, I only know what a couple of them mean" I was curious so asked "what colours mean what " purple - is annoyance or anger and slight bloodlust
Red - is pure bloodlust and rage
Green - is disgust
Orange - is nervousness
Pink - I dunno
Grey- is when I just don't feel anything
(E/c) - is neutral
Royal blue - sadness or pain
Light blue - is heartbreak and emotional pain
I don't think she realised she basically just gave me a guide to deciphering her emotions.

(Names) POV

You didn't know what it was about Karma but you felt, he could be trusted in your eyes. You would still be cautious, but you wouldn't mind opening up yourself to him a little....that wouldn't hurt right. You looked at him to see him deep in thought and realized your hand was still on his cheek, you released him from your grip and smiled at him. I love looking at him his hair is such and amazing colour and those lion like, gold eyes are so captivating you mentally slapped yourself not understanding your new found foundness for the red-head. Karma snapped you out of your thoughts with a hand in your face as he said "come on cough it up, gimme!" You looked at him like he spoke another language "what?" He realised he probably sounded crazy "the blade gimme!" You gulped than said "w-what do you mean blade?" You feigned innocence but he obviously wasn't having it, still holding out his hand you caved, handing him the blade you had brought with you. His eyes widened obviously never realising how easy the blade actually was to require.
He looked up and said "thank you, now, we should probably get ready or should we just take today off?" you looked at him and smiled  "maybe we take a nap than go in after P.E's finished?"
And so the two of you went to Karma's room to take a nap and ended up sleeping the entire day away.