Hopeless(Karma x reader)

Chapter 13

Em so like extreme trigger warning ⚠️ so don't read if your sensitive to self-harm and that stuff.

Rio POV

As soon as name passed out I began to freak out is she gonna be okay? What happened? No one could see from where we were? Questions flooded my mind as Korosensei freaked, (name) began to breath slower, I was getting really worried when Itona stepped in "fucking knew she'd do this" as he began to sew up the girl, grip spoke up  "don't talk about miss (L/n) like some commoner kid" Itonas eyebrow twitched "I can speak how I want as I'm saving her life" the two bickered back and forth until, ( name) who had woken up said in a strained raspy voice "will you two shut up" everyone turned to see the girl propped up on her elbows glaring at Itona and grip, her eyes still black why won't they change what is she constantly feeling I coughed than asked the obvious question "you guys know each other?" I pointed at the three assassins than (name), Gastro smiled "Yup she's our higher up the highest ranking assassin, Lady (name). Although she doesn't like that so we call her miss (name) her whole blood line runs through assassin heritage, known to be the deadliest" (name) looked away, seeming kinda...bored she sighed "be quiet gastro don't toot my horn too much or you'll run outta breathe, I'm only good because it was forced on me, nothing more" Gastro looked kinda hurt but before he could retaliate, the helicopters arrived and we separated.
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(Names) POV

You sat in the bed at the infirmary where you were placed for 'resting'. You really didn't want to be here, you just sat there on the edge of the bed, head hung low I'm so weak I can't even fight a little poison, how pathetic you shook your head suppressing your demeaning evil thoughts as you stared at your wrists pathetic, worthless, slut, whore, creep, bitch, cutter, depressing, sad, disgusting, monster words from your passed and present, probably also your future played through your head. You were finding it so hard to push these thoughts down, especially after Karma left you, you hung your head lower and whispered "karma" what startled you was Rio saying "(name) you still love him?" You kept your head down but nodded, she sighed and walked out letting you be alone, probably not a good idea. You looked out the window and saw you were on the 5 floor won't kill me but might break something you climbed out the window to see a tree, you jumped onto it than climbed down. On the beach you saw Irina chatting with Karasuma looks like a date, cute but something the assassin said as she left caught your attention "do you know what it means to kill, to end someone's life" the same sentence played in your head over and over as you sat by the sea. it means you deserve the same fate, you will die just like them, because you deserve it. Because it's karma, how ironic. But you can decide how you go, you took a blade from your pocket carving a word into your hip murderer. You were about to do more when you heard rustling and talking, you got up to see what it was and god how you wished you just left. There in the trees you saw Karma, his back pressed against the trees as Okuda had her arms around his neck kissing him, you cleared your throat getting annoyed always finding them like this, the two looked at you with shock as you yawned "keep it PG guys, someone who gives a shit might see you" you walked past them as Karma seemed to say something, but it got muffled. You didn't look back knowing your eyes would betray you, they were black but cracked with light blue and burning lilac, the pale purple being jealousy, yes you were extremely jealous of Okuda, you walked back to the hotel to see Rio "(name) where have you been?!" You didn't want to snap at her so walked past saying "give me some time" Rios eyes widened, just from hearing your voice and seeing your eyes she knew something was up.

Itonas POV

I saw how hostile (name) was with Rio and knew something was up I walked up to the blonde, I spoke to her in a soft voice "do you know what's wrong with her?" She shook her head  "I dunno her eyes were black, but looked cracked with light blue and a lilac colour" she looked at me for answers as I wracked my brain to solve the colours in her eyes, but to no avail I just started walking towards the forest, followed by Rio, she gave me a puzzled looked "the thing that upset her is in here and I plan to find it"she nodded as we walked in to see two teens whispering to eachother. Akabane and Okuda, I stepped out with Rio and asked nicely but firmly "what happened?" Okuda blushed as Karma paled, he spoke obviously trying to sound tough but not so much "what did she come running to ye crying about me and Okuda" I walked up to him and grabbed his collar "I tried the nice way but I swear akabane, you have No IDEA HOW MUCH SHE KEEPS INSIDE, I know her the most and she'll only show be 10% of her emotions, the only person who she opened up to about 45% was the reaper and he's GONE, NOW WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?!" He gulped before "she walked in on Okuda kissing me....twice, once before the trip and another just there." I dropped him as everything clicked, I knew she loved him, she didnt tell me but she didn't have to.
Black - suicidal
Lilac- jealousy and light blue - heartbreak.
I could feel my blood run cold as I whispered "jealousy, heartbreak, suicide" I looked up tears brimming my eyes as the others looked at me baffled and confused, Rio shouted at me to explain but I only whispered out "she's really gonna do it, I thought it stopped but she'll do it" Rio shouted at me more but I turned and ran as fast as I possibly could she's gonna end her life this pushed her over the line SHIT IF SHE DIES I SWEAR AKABANE IS NEXT.
I reached the hotel, knowing I might already be too late, I saw Maehara and asked frantically "w-where did name go" he said her room I ran there screaming and kicking the door, the others followed confused, I barked at Karma "KICK IT DOWN, KICK IT DOWN NOW" he complied, I ran into the bathroom and there she lied in a pool of blood I screamed Bloody murder not caring, tears streamed down my face. I had closed the door to the bathroom, they wouldn't see her in this state, I sewed her wrist and came out of the bathroom.
3rd persons POV

Itona walked out of the bathroom, (name) was alive but barely, if she didn't get blood now, she'd be gone, Itona spoke "Korosensei I must ask if anyone in the class is type AB blood type besides me we need blood" everyone looked confused as one person raised their hand. The last person in the world Itona wanted to see raise their hand. Karma Akabane. But Itona swallowed his pride and got on all fours and begged for his life, well for her life, she was the only person he considered family and he couldn't lose her. Karma was extremely startled and really embarrassed, he got Itona to stand up and said "fine whatever, I'll donate just get the hell up" Itona knew he couldn't extract it and than give it he had to connect them now or she would die. He grabbed Karma bringing him into the bathroom than closed the door, Karma cringed at the sight of all the blood he looked at Itona as the boy was unfazed, he sat down on a chair as Itona stood and stuck some things into him that connected him to (name)?!? Wtf what the hell happened why did she bleed so much. Itona than connected himself to her tears streaming down his face.
Once the process was finished Karma walked out with Itona, he told everyone to go to his room as he would explain. He came in with(Name) he had changed her clothes (with Rio) and set her on his bed, he sat on the bed as all students and faculty waited to hear, thinking they would hear that she was attacked but instead got "well basically she tried to kill herself" everyone was completely shocked even Korosensei, they looked at him hoping there would be more, the boy sighed "when we were younger she found me at a bridge ready to jump, she stopped me and as Karma said awhile ago, she had actually went to end her life. Constantly being tortured, forced to train, loveless family etc her life sucked. She only told me months later about this and when I found out I pulled up her sleeves to see her self harm, one day I found her trying to end her life again, i made her promise that she wouldn't attempt something like this again unless she truly believed it was her time...." Itona stared at the broken girl who was asleep than continued "I finally found out what those black eyes of hers meant, suicide she's been contemplating this for so long and finally what happened today sent her over the edge to the point she wanted to die" Itona glares at Karma and Okuda " that day I found her she had written me a letter I refused to open it until she actually died but she seems to have written another anyways and some for you all, but I will not be letting you read them, as I will not let her die" some were annoyed others were thinking the same thing, Korosensei finally spoke "who has a letter addressed to them" Itona looked through the envelopes and called out each name "Itona, Rio, Korosensei, Lorvo, Irina, Karasuma, Korosensei, Okuda, one to the whole class and Karma" Irina looked down "how dare that pip squeak be nice at the last minute" everyone looked down to the sleeping figure, Maehara jumped a bit "s-she's waking up" Itona looked to his side to see that statement was correct, (name) looked at Itona and her eyes turned light blue with purple as she lunged at the boy and screamed "ITONA HOW DARE YOU"