My I「Junhao」

1.9

I didn't even bother leaving a note. I hadn't done so for about five years now.

I slipped my phone between my bare hip and my pants, the waistband of the pants keeping it there as I climbed out of my window, grabbing my house keys from my windowsill and closing said window once I was outside. I moved the step ladder from its place by the back door and used it to climb over the fence dividing the properties of my house and the one next door.

The window was open, as expected, and a soft smile grew on my face as I climbed through the window. He was asleep, but from the frown on his face, it wasn't a very pleasant sleep and I had a feeling that he wasn't going to stay asleep for very long. I put my phone and keys on the desk, closed the window and crawled into the bed, laying on my side and getting extremely close to him.

Minghao, sensing the warmth radiating from my body, curled up against me, his head buried in my chest. I put an arm over him, almost protectively, and tangled our legs. "Gēge." Minghao whispered in his sleep, subconsciously recognising me by the way I laid when we were sleeping together. I smiled softly and kissed the top of his head before slowly drifting off into sleep.

Y'all it's a dream scene :O there's a bit of foreshadowing but only some of it is actually gonna happen 😈

As soon as I saw where I was, I knew I was dreaming. It was a place I hadn't seen in four years, yet could recognise instantly. It was Shenzhen. It was home.

I could feel a slight pressure on my hand and I looked down and noticed that my hand was interlocked with someone else's. I looked to see who the person was but couldn't see a face because it was covered with a face mask and a hat. What I noticed was short, bright red hair that was visible when I looked at the side of their head, too short to belong to a female (but why would my significant other be a female if I'm as straight as a circle?). When they spoke, their voice was somewhat distorted, almost as if to confuse me, yet I could recognise the way of speaking, it was one I grew up with.

"Gēge, I can't believe we finally made it." Minghao spoke. I was confused, what did we make? When was this? But my dream self spoke for me. "I know, it feels like just yesterday when we signed." Signed what?

"I can't believe that back then we actually tho-" the rest of his sentence was severely distorted and I tried to strain my ears to hear him, but I couldn't as the scene changed. Minghao and myself were holding hands and a voice I hadn't heard since we lived in Shenzhen spoke from behind us. It was one of Minghao and I's friends that we had made other than each other. We may have separated before any of us went through puberty but his voice was still recognisable.

"I'm so happy for you two. You wouldn't believe me, but at one point my mother actually thought you two were dating when we were like 10. Like seriously that's how long you two have been gay for each other." I laughed, and so did Minghao and dream me. It really wasn't surprising that he said that. Even if this was just a dream and we didn't see MingMing ever again, I could imagine him saying that.

The scene changed again, from the lightheartedness of the extremely realistic conversation with MingMing to a darker scene. I saw the small figure of someone being practically dragged away from me and who I assumed was my friends, due to all I could hear being the heartbroken sobbing of people around me.

The scene changed again and I could hear my own traumatised sobs. "His legs can't be paralysed. Take my legs. Take my whole body. Take my life if you need to. I'd do anything. I'd pay with everything I have ever owned in my life for him to walk again. I only have a broken leg he doesn't deserve to be paralysed." Dream me spoke rapidly, changing in and out of Korean, Mandarin and Cantonese in a frantic manner as both dream me and myself panicked more and more with each passing second.

Someone hugged dream me and I could practically feel the warmth, but dream me couldn't stop shaking as he sobbed hysterically. "He still has such a bright future ahead of him don't take his legs." Dream me pleaded. "How is he meant to walk down the aisle to me if his legs are paralysed?" Dream me asked quietly and I could feel myself start to cry.

Dream me stood in front of a bed, legs shaking."Who are you?" The familiar voice asked and dream me fell to his knees. All I wanted to do was cry in a dark hole because it was feeling so real. "-ge are you okay? Junnie-ge? GĒGE!" I was startled awake by Minghao and I sat up abruptly, almost hitting Minghao in the face with my shoulder.

"Gēge, are you okay? I woke up and saw you were crying." I looked back at my best friend and, upon remembering the dream's events, the dams in my eyes broke and tears started streaming down my face again. I lunged towards him and tackled him to his own bed as I hugged him tightly. "Please don't ever leave I don't want you to get hurt. I don't want you to get sick anymore." I shook my head along with my words and Minghao started to rake his hands through my hair, muttering soothing words to me.

"Please don't leave me. I can't be alone I'm not suited for that sort of life I just want you in my life." Minghao kissed me on the crown of my hair and hugged me tightly, "I'm not letting go I promise. I care for you too much to leave." He muttered reassuringly and I almost cried harder.

YO ITS 11:47 I ALMOST DIDNT MAKE IT BECAUSE OF MY DAMNED GEOGRAOHY ASSIGNMENT ALSO I WROTETHIS ON WHAT FEALS LIKE TEO WHOURS OF SLEEP BUT WAS AFTUALLY 6. I'm so tired omg save me I'm gonna post this and sleep and edit later.

^not even five minutes passed before o fell asleep lmao

WHATS THE SONG/S YOURE LOOKING FORWARD TO MOST IN TEEN, AGE????

Mine are Clap, Hello, Rocket and Flower!!!