My I「Junhao」

2.3

We were seated in the after school English as a second language class and watched with dread as our teacher put up her favourite sign, the one that said 'no Korean'. These were horrible lessons for us, who weren't fluent in English, but they were our teacher's favourite thing, being born and raised in an English speaking country.

She had learnt Korean so she could take this job, but like all people who know a second language, she prefers to talk in her mother tongue. I zoned out and copied any words she wrote, writing the Korean translations in Mandarin as well, just in case I forgot to read Korean one day because you never know if one day you might wake up and have amnesia and forget how to read.

"Gēge are you awake?" Minghao asked, effectively snapping me out of my trance. "What?" I asked dumbly. Minghao rolled his eyes and laughed slightly at my response before copying the notes on the whiteboard rapidly, seconds before our teacher went to erase them.

"I'm just talking about your oh so godly looks and your beautiful voice and your fucking plump ass." Minghao stated dryly after he finished copying the notes, rubbing his hand to try to get the cramps to stop. "Honestly I'm sick of this abuse." I whispered jokingly and Minghao sloppily kissed me on the cheek. "Love you too babe." He responded. I just groaned and shoved him on his shoulder.

"Boys I love that you're being open with your relationship but not in class please. Also, as you were talking while I was talking and it seemed oh so interesting to you, can you please share with us what you were saying?" She asked, Australian accent audible in every word she spoke.

She made sure to pointedly look at the sign and I looked at Minghao with a mischievous smile. He seemed to catch on to what my plan was and he smiled as well. "Oh, nothing miss. Just," I switched mid-sentence into Mandarin. "Well I was first of all copying your notes blindly because I had no sleep I started to fall asleep and then Xiao Hao just fucking complimented me which isn't fair and,"

I then swapped into Cantonese, "I can't fucking believe my feelings aren't gone I just want to be in a relationship with Minghao again because I still love him." I tried to stop myself from breathing heavily after my mini rant. "Yeah I totally confessed by undying love to Gēge." Minghao stated in Mandarin, looking at me somewhat blankly due to what I said in Cantonese and it was at this moment that I was thankful that Minghao could hardly remember Cantonese.

The class was silent, staring at us, their mouths gaping and eyes wide. Our teacher blinked, once, twice, before she simply sighed and left the room. As she left she announced that we should just go. So I stood up, grabbed my bag and turned to Minghao with a smile.

"Come on Xiao Hao. Let's go to a cafe before we go home." I held out my hand to take Minghao's hand and he looked down at it momentarily before looking back up at me and hesitantly taking it.

The walk to the cafe was slow and quiet, but it was a nice, comfortable quiet. Once we arrived, I made Minghao find somewhere to sit down and placed our order at the front counter. Soon after, I took the number and looked around the cafe to try and find where Minghao had decided to sit.

The cafe was a simple, but nice looking cafe. It was painted a mint green colour and had light grey floor tiles. There were pillars strewn here and there, fairy lights strung around them. There were a combination of both booths and tables, all decorated with small vases with some flowers in them. Upon looking a bit more, I saw Minghao sitting in a booth rather far away from where anyone would be able to see.

I headed over to him with a faint smile on my face and sat down, putting the number at the edge of the table. "What's up Xiao Hao?" I asked upon sitting down, assuming he was troubled by something by the way his posture was and by his behaviour. He was hunched over and furiously moving his finger against his phone screen. "I..." he looked up at me and I could see that there were tears in his eyes.

He then recited what I had said earlier in Cantonese, specifically the part when I spoke about still having feelings for Minghao. "I may not remember everything about Cantonese, but I can remember enough to recognise some of those words you said, 'I still love him'. You always whispered romantic things to me in Cantonese. Please explain, Junnie-gē." He whispered.

My eyes widened and I began to curse myself in my head. I knew I was quite reliant on how he wasn't 100% fluent in Cantonese and I now realised that I shouldn't have been so reliant on that. "I... Minghao... I honestly don't think we should've broken up. It was a stupid reason and we both were hurting so much because of it."

Just after I started, a worker came to give us our drinks. Sensing the tension, they put the drinks down, took the number and immediately left afterwards. "I'm sorry I shouldn't be talking about this. I'm just being ridiculous." I tried to stop the topic from being continued, but Minghao glared at me. "Don't you dare try to change the topic. Tell me what you're thinking Gēge. Tell me everything." He insisted.

"It's just... everyone thinks we're dating still and I can see why because we still do the same sort of stuff we did while we were dating, minus the kissing, obviously, and it just hurts because I've realised that I still love you and I always have." I didn't realise I was crying until Minghao, who was also crying, wiped his own tears and leaned over the table to wipe my tears with a careful, soft touch.

"I'm sorry Gēge I didn't know you felt this way and I feel really bad about everything now. I... I understand what you are saying about us but I just don't know anymore. I'm just so confused because of everything and I don't know what to do anymore. I thought it was a decent idea at that time because I was scared but I don't know it was too late for me to tell you my regrets I just-."

I cut him off by leaning over the table and placing my lips on his. I was kissing him with all the repressed feelings from the past few months after we broke up. Much to my pleasure, rather than pushing me away, protesting about it and leaving me broken hearted, he kissed me back, equally as passionate. Neither of us were rough though, we had shared more of a tender, loving kiss.

I smiled into the kiss and when we pulled away, Minghao was slightly flushed, looking more genuinely happy than what he had been for a long time. "So, Xu Minghao, are you willing for our relationship to start again? To start fresh and forget all the pain from last time?" I asked and he leaned forward and kissed me again.

"Was that an acceptable answer for you?" He asked in a low, teasing voice. In my mind, I rose an eyebrow, I knew what he was trying to do. "I don't know, Xiao Hao, I think I was getting mixed vibes from that. How about you answer me again?" Minghao smirked and decided to go along with my plan, leaning forward again, cupping the back of my head.

He stopped centimetres away from my lips, whispered, "Of course, Gēge." and bliss filled me as he kissed me once again.

Y'ALL IT FINALLY HAPPEMED IM EMO AND I SCREAM EVERY TIME I READ THIS

SORRY IM LATE (BUT IT WAS SO WORTH BEING LATE BECAUSE OF WHAT HAOOENED) LMAO I WAS IN A GAY PRIDE PARADE LAST NIGHT AND I WAS ABSOLUTELY EXHAUSTED TODAY I ACTUALLY ENDED UP SLEEPING FOR ABOUT AN HOUR AT 5PM

ALSO GUESS WHO DID PRETTY WELL IN THEIR EXAMS
THATS RIGHT I DID

(Also one of my managers at work called Jun hot when I showed her a photo of him and I'm like same)