I wanted you to understand the pain I was feeling as you felt the pain that I didn't understand until now you wanted to me feel the pain because you thought I didn't understand what pain was until you understood what pain was and now I'm in pain and you don't understand why.
because love is an emotion I didn't understand because love wasn't an emotion I was supposed to feel and you seemed like you were giving me love, an emotion you never knew, besides the feeling you felt when your words caressed my entire being more than any hand could ever.
and I thought
and I fought
until I realized this was not something I'd want
I wanted you to feel your cold heart melting and your flesh burning at the exact same time
and yet I felt myself melting into a puddle of my own self and evaporating into the sun
