Colors From The Fallen Raindrops

Lonewolf's Lament

When I was young, I always have company. Those people who will play with you, made you laugh, defend you to those who hate you. I really Thought FRIENDSHIP is always equivalent to HAPPINESS. Then, I was WRONG…

When I was in high school, I always saw a young girl in a particular class. she is the outcast of the group. she always have the feeling of rejection. she is always alone. at first, I think she is weird and very stupid to look at.

When I entered Junior high school, things started to fall apart. I was deserted by the people I really care about, my two best buds, my bestfriends. I felt that I was left alone because they had their own and new company, forgetting me behind.

Now, I know the feeling of the girl that I see in our campus. I realize that she was misunderstood like me. I tried to join other people and I didn’t mind their genders, I just want somebody to join me, to stay, so I won’t feel the loneliness every time I walk by myself alone. I really get jealous to those people who have a great circle of friends. I learn to live half alive.

Now that I’m in college, I always feel this emptyness inside. I’m convincing myself to stand for myself and to be strong to hide the fact that I’m vunerable and so I won’t feel the bitterness I feel everyday and because of that, I get awful crap about it. people all around me judging me. sometimes, I just want to break down and to cry for a couple of minutes. It’s been hard for me to trust because I don’t want to broken again. I always felt everyone is leaving me and letting me down. yes, you might see me laughing with you, but the fact is, I’m swallowed whole by the sadness inside my heart.

I always go and leave my school all by myself everyday and It’s really hard for me to cope up. I just wanted to be happy, that’s all, is that too much to ask? I always run to God whenever I feel I can’t do it anymore. he gives me the courage to be strong. he always hears out my problems and make things right. He is always there for me whenever he sees me fall and catches me anytime of the day. HE IS MY SUPERHERO..

PLEASE DON’T LET ME GO………………………..

PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME…………………………

PLEASE FILL IN MY EMPTY HEART……………….

STAY……………………………………………….</3