Complicated

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Y/N Pov

1 more week, I have to confess I feel sad sometimes, Weird though. I never get sad, or at least I rarely did, before Jaeden came.

We don't talk anymore, only if we have like an actual purpose to, I guess we're both too shy to express our feelings or at least start a conversation, at least I am.

Then there's this thought I keep having, it's so annoying to be honest, specially because I don't know the answer to it, i wish I'd know...

Ok I'll just say it, I think he found out. Sometimes I look at him and the thought of him knowing I like him appears. And you'd think, and? What's wrong with that? It's not like if he said he doesn't like you back or anything. And that's the problem. I think he knows, and if I'm right than well that's depressing 'cause he could talk to me or something. But no. He doesn't even says hi anymore. I feel like he ignores me sometimes. And I don't know why.

Leaving my struggles behind, It's December, that means 1 thing. 1 damn thing. 1 word. Homecoming. And what's wrong with that? Oh hunny, well let me tell you. Nothing. Only that this year it's the girls turn to ask out boys. The struggle is real. And there's no option to it, in my school, which kinda sucks for things like this, it's OBLIGATORY that everyone has to assist homecoming. It's the school's biggest event, so everyone has to be there.

So I have to ask someone, I was planning on maybe asking Jaeden, I just need the courage to. And I was gonna have to build that up TODAY.

Jaeden's Pov

About 1 week has passed, I keep trying to avoid Y/N, now more than ever, my feelings for her have grown and now they're on the limit. I think she likes me, maybe, I hope. I mean, yeah sometimes I spend my time looking at her when she's looking away, I've only got caught a few times by her, but that's not the thing, the reason I think she likes me it's because is SHE the one who I've caught a lot of times looking at me, the fact that she looks at me "discreetly" and looks away like if nothing happened whenever I caught her, just makes my feelings for her grow a lot more, I watched her as she blushes because sometimes it's both of us the ones who try to look at each other secretly but end up making clear eye contact and we always hold that up for a bit until we both realize and look away.

So yeah we kind of exchange looks a lot, we don't talk, but just by looking at each other, I think that's enough, at least it is for me, I really like her, and as I said, I think it's not only me but maybe she likes me too.

Oh also the homecoming event is close, this time is girls turn to choose their partner by asking them out. It's obligatory so they HAVE to ask someone, you as a boy, still can feel free to say no if you don't want to, but at some point you're gonna have to say yes.

I hope Y/N asks me. I'd obviously say yes. What if she asks someone else?! What if she doesn't like me as I thought?. No. Jaeden stop. You're just gonna end up bringing yourself down with this. She likes you. Maybe. Just, keep that thought, it'll make you less depressive. Yeah, she likes me.

(Tomorrow after this^)

Your Pov

Okay, you ready Y/N ? Today is the day. Today you're asking Jaeden out for homecoming. You spend yesterday only growing the courage to do it. You're doing it. There's no turning back.
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"Thanks for the ride mom, love you"

I stood there in front of the school after watching my mom's car and her go away.

"Okay, you're ready and you know it
Y/N! Now go and ask him." I said to me under my breath.