I hear my heart pounding in my ears.
I feel the swelling of my cheeks from the tears beginning to stream down them.
I feel the heat of his breath hover on my lips.
I feel as though if he touched me I would fall into the bed at his complete mercy but all that escapes is "oh"
I stand there, his hands on my shoulders:
"Say something!" He yells triumphantly.
I stand there dazed.
"SAY SOMETHING! DONT YOU LOVE ME TOO?!"
Realization.
"How could you ?"
His face twisted in agony as if I had punched him in the gut.
But I didn't stop there.
"How could you leave me like that! How could you call me a problem waiting to happen!" I was getting angry.
"Liam, you don't understand-"
"Zayn! I don't understand a lot of things but this I understand perfectly!"
He didn't try to fight the words, he said them plain out "I was afraid of commitment!"
I stare at him in awe.
"Commitment?! COMMITMENT?!"
"I knew the second I saw you I would be sucked into this black whole of misery and conflict and suffrage and...love....and by the way you held me that night I could tell you knew it too"
I did.
"I didn't! You don't know a thing about me!"
"I know that you love me too"
I couldn't argue. If I did, if he made me lie about my feelings toward him I would explode and I hated it. How could he know it so well. So confidently.
Because it was meant to be.
"SHUT UP! WHY DONT YOU JUST KISS ME?!"
"What?"
"I said kiss me, you idiot"
He leaned over, pressing his entire body to mine, forcing me on the bed as my wobbly knees gave out.
He hovered over me, his arms on either side of shoulders.
"I have been dying to do this"
He pressed him plump lips to mine erupting a crazy rumble of fire in my chest. My whole body felt as though it was on flames.
I through the blanket off the bed because the heat was unbearable.
He moaned into my mouth as if adding oil to my fire.
This flame...our heat...our light will never diminish as long as I know I'm his.
"You're right" I mumbled into his mouth slowly.
"About?" He pulled away, keeping his soft eyes at mine.
"Me loving you"
He pulled me to him slowly, sitting me up so gently I felt like a puppy.
He wrapped his arms around me as though if I moved I would break, he nuzzled his nose into my neck, his hair tickled my cheek. His breath hit my neck in the most sincere way.
"I'm so sorry, Liam" he breathed.
"I'm sorry for everything I caused you, all the pain I made you go through, all the conflict and the abandonment...I never wanted you to feel pain and that's why I left but I never knew I would be the reason for your pain"
I hugged him back, how could I be so blind as to think I could make it without him. I need him because I'm stupid.
"Zayn?" He gave me the puppy stare again.
"I love you, I believe you love me and your sorry...but in order to give me the sence of security I once had...you can't just say it, you need to show it"
He put his legs either side of me and pushed me on the bed again, kissing me in a rush as if I would have to leave soon.
He swiped his tongue over my bottom lip before hoisting me back up.
"I know what I'm going to do" he whispered.
He grabbed my hand and rushed me out the door.
It smelled like beer and sweat but I didn't care.
"Zayn, what are you doing"
"Showing it" he whispered back.
He hid me behind a wall and told me to be quiet and went onto his stairs above the crowd.
"EVERYONE!" He called but no one heard.
"EVERYONE LISTEN UP" he had caught a few people's attention.
He grabbed someone's beer and smashed in on the floor making a loud shatter noise.
When everyone looked up at him he smiled
" HI EVERYONE! " he cheered and they roared with excitement and drunken smiles.
"I WANNA INTRODUCE SOMEONE TO YOU!
HE IS A GREAT FRIEND!
HE IS A GREAT PERSON!
HE IS SUPPER FUNNY
HE IS SO SENTIMENTAL AND EMOTIONAL
HE KNOWS HOW TO LOVE
HE IS FUCKING HOT
AND HE IS MINE"
My jaw was dropped.
"LIAM BABE c'MON OVER"
I humbly walked over and waved at the crowd.
"Don't be so shy babe!" Zayn teased, kissing my cheek.
"ALL OF YOU HAVE FUN NOW!"
He yelled, pulling me back into the room.
I jumped into the bed and hid my face.
"Did I show you enough"
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I'm Baaaaaaaaaack!!!
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