Burnt Cigarette {Ziam} (boyxboy)

Where Do Broken Hearts Go

"Liam!" I scream, into bitter darkness, my eternity being swallowed whole into the depths of the Wolverhampton night.

the mere thought of Liam being alone out here sends me chills.. my poor baby, alone with nothing but himself, the cold, and his oblivious thoughts.

"Liam! I'm sorry! you got it all wrong!"

I was answered by a mocking whistle of the wind.

Damn it, Liam! why couldn't you just listen to me, Goddamn it.

I'm hobbling down the road; if liam doesn't want to be found my loud crutches will make that much easier for him to escape.

this really is a good place for him to think, i'v been out here 5 minuets and my mind has already began to wonder to foreign places, places in my head I never knew even existed.

c'mon Zayn... where do you go to hide when your hearts been broken.

where do broken hearts go?

Liam never told me about his past, he never told me what he did after school or who his best friends were... I remember he said something about a tree house.

"Liam?!"

a tree house he use to climb because that's the only way he could feel himself rise.

"Babe!!"

a tree house he built himself because his father never cared enough to build him a home.. In the case he has made clearer to me.

"Liam! C'mon!"

a tree house that was bright when it was dark and dark when it was bright.

hidden behind street corners and in the mist of forgotten dreams.

but how is there a tree house in a city ?

a tree house that was only a figment of his imagination.

am I being too mysterious and sentimental for you ? sorry, it's the night, it's getting to my head.

Liam knows this town, he knows this place, he knows where to hide and where no one would know where to look.

but I know Liam, and that's all I need.

Liam tends to be found when your not looking for him, he seems to be understood when your not trying to understand, he seems to be loved when your trying your hardest not to love him.

damn, the mysterious quotes level is off the charts.

it's like something in my heart snaps and automatically makes the world around me familiar.

the never before seen walls like imprints on the corners of my mind.

I halt.

I turn.

and I walk to a dimly lit ice cream shop around the corner, Iv hobbled far enough to where I have no idea where I am but it doesn't feel that way.

I walk through the doors and order a cup of ice cream with whip cream and nuts.

I lick it, dismissing the spoon standing nicely at the corner of the cup.

I walk back into the darkness, watching the light fade and the open sign turning a closed.

I sigh

I failed you again, Liam

no! don't think about it!

but-

I shut my mind up, carrying my crutches and icecream unshaken, aimlessly down an ally way.

I turn a corner, the dim light of the street shutting off completely and I sit at the wall, placing my crutches beside a large green trash can.

Damn it

stop fxcking crying

I feel a tear slip off my cheek

stop it... don't-

"why... why can't I do it right..." I begin, talking to myself.

"I try.. and I try and I think I'm trying so hard.. it shouldn't be this hard. am I doing it wrong?"

I wipe the tears on my face, making a fresh breeze hit my cheeks.

"maybe I'm not the guy.. to love him.. I can't give him what he really deserves... what he truly needs."

I pound my fist at the brick.

"why can't I be the guy! why can't i!"

I yowl in agony, no longer afraid if Liam is near or far, if my pleads are audible to his ears.

"do I not love him enough! because i know I love him with all my heart! all that I am capable of! all that I can! why is it not enough! what do I need to do!"

"shut up" I hear a mumble beside me, yet not scaring me.

"why are you here?"

"something brought me here" I whispered to the disembodied voice.

"it wasn't me?" he whispers.

"yes"

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this was so mysterious and heart wrenching. the suspense drips off the boundarious walls of our lost souls... ok I'm sorry x)

and yes... I had to do that with the title.. I couldn't help myself, sue me.

i know it's reallllllly short! I'm sorry !!! I'll be writing more dont worry.

do u guys want it to end soon or want me to go on? ooooooh choices.

ily guys.

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