group chat ; omaha/old magcon

cincuenta y nueve

cameron knocked on his girlfriend's apartment door as he held his phone in his left hand, his texts open.

his tiny framed girlfriend opened the door to face him, wrapped in a fluffy blanket with tears in her eyes. the two looked at each other for a couple moments before cameron picked her up and held her close to him.

"never feel like it was your fault." he whispered in her ear as her body racked up and down with sobs. "hear me? it's not your fault. not in the tiniest bit."

luna nuzzled her head into her boyfriend's broad shoulder, whispering softly, "it is though. i was listening to everything that my parents told me to do, and did the exact opposite. just to be a bitch, for no reason. my parents would fight, every night. i would sneak back into the house, and hear them arguing in their bedroom. screaming at each other, calling each other fuck ups and ignorant." she said as she full out sobbed.

cameron rubbed up and down the length of his girlfriend's back in an attempt to calm her down and comfort her. "let's go inside and sit down, okay baby?" she merely nodded and he picked her up bridal style and then carried her to the couch centered in her living room.

she laid down in his lap and he played her hair because he knew that it was the best way to calm her down. the tears slowly halted and she spoke up again. "what if i raised a little terror that'd be like me?"

"you're anything but a terror babe," cameron leaned down and kissed luna's forehead which led a small smile to creep onto her face.

"i still am now, but thanks." luna tilted her head back to look at cameron and send him a smile. he continued to play with her hair as she continued to speak. "when i was a teenager, i was such a little shit. i would play with guys' hearts. i would feel like they were in love with me, and once i knew for sure, i would break up with them in the most humiliating way. or, other times, i would end relationships but just because it seemed fun. i was a mean girl in high school. that's not even a joke. i was like regina george on speed.

"i couldn't even imagine raising a fucking demon like i was. and i do not blame my dad for getting fed up with it. but i just wish, i wish so badly that he would've talked it out with me and my mom. and had an actual sit down talk so things wouldn't be the way that they were."

"oh my god. you were the 'brunette bitch from eastside high' i heard stories about you in high school."

"hi, brunette bitch here." luna sat up and raised her hand in shame.

"no but, like this girl would start pregnancy rumors and lie to other girls that their boyfriends tried to hook up with her. or one time she went on a bunch of dates from this guy at my high school and had him reeled in. and he was the so called player at my school. and then, he told her that he loved her and she laughed at him and then made fun of him for everything she learned that he was insecure about. i heard she was so condescending about it too."

"oh, that was tyler right?" she looked at cameron, disgust in her voice because of her actions.

"no, his name was stephen," cameron trailed off as he realized how bad she really was.

"shit. see, this is why i fucking hate myself and i refuse to procreate. how in hell could i raise a child that acted like that? a snotty bitch that goes around and ruins peoples' lives for her own enjoyment? what kind of sadistic freak am i?" luna dropped her head into her hands, ashamed with who she used to be.

"you're not sadistic and you're not a freak. maybe you need therapy, yeah, but you're not a freak. this all stemmed when your parents started arguing and all of that bullshit. you're not crazy." cameron rubbed luna's back again.

"i went to therapy. twice. the first lady, i made her question her marriage and turns out they got separated after she refused to treat me any longer. and then the second one told me that i didn't know what love was and i was incapable of expressing my emotions in a healthy manner. i think he said 'you're incapable of love at this time in your life'. but that was only two years ago. and look at how me and nate's relationship ended.

"and think about how many times i've started bullshit arguments with you? i really am a lost cause that's incapable of love. holy shit."

"that's not true." cameron defended his girlfriend, not believing a word leaving her mouth.

"think about it. how many times have i got mad at you for dumb shit and then blocked you out? like you leaving the door cracked instead of shutting it all the way like i asked. or i got so mad at you when you were traveling and it was an honest mistake and even then i only apologized when i was drunk and vulnerable."

"stop, stop. just stop undermining our relationship. we're solid. we argue. but that's what happens in a healthy relationship."

"is a healthy relationship one where someone doesn't realize that the other one is in love with them and that one only says it after so many actions being shown that you did love me? that's not my definition of a healthy relationship."

"are you trying to tell me that you don't love me?" cameron turned to luna and looked her in the eyes, having tears in his eyes at this point in the conversation.

"i'm just saying that maybe i don't know what love actually is." luna looked at cameron crying.

"okay, i'm going to go. this got weird and all you did is make me feel bad about putting myself out there. see you around." cameron stood up from the couch, brushed his hands off on his pants, and then went towards the door.

"i have feelings for you cameron, i just don't know that i love you!!" luna pleaded.

"how is that supposed to make me feel better?" cameron asked before opening the door and then exiting the apartment.

DRAMMMAAA.

oh hey, i'm back (probably not for long but i reread this and the first couple chapters are cringey as hell but i like the plot too much so i'm probably just gonna finish it up and then be done. :) i don't even like the guys of magcon that much anymore :,) ALSO SO MUCH SHIT HAS HAPPENED SINCE I WROTE THE LAST COUPLE CHAPTERS LIKE EIGHT MONTHS AGO... yikes.

there's gonna be a hella big time skip in the next chapter bc idk how to save sammy/stass' & jack/madisons' relationships because they've each been broken up for how long???

anywho i, missed ya guys :)

luna )