Poems

Nobody

By: Irene Huebra Garcia

I was too afraid to
rip off the bandaids of lies
that would reveal the scars
of the truth

I was afraid to roll up my sleeves
because I knew people would stare,
stare at the wounds of my past
and the darkness of my present

So I put on my fake smile
I pull on the weight of my life
I try to keep going
I tell myself everything will be alright

I bargain with myself
I bargain with my thoughts
I weigh the good and bad
realizing that everyone's better without me

I try to remember why I'm fighting
why I've stayed so long
why I've played along
like it's all a joke

When it truly isn't
but I keep going
I don't know why
maybe because I've been fooling myself

For so long
I've thought I mattered
I thought someone would miss me
But truly I'm just a nobody

I'm a nobody that
cares more about others than myself
and that's why I'm a burden
to anybody that I care about
hey

That's why people feel bad for me
because they know I'm no one
once I'm gone, nothing will change
everyone will be better without me in the way

I try to get away
just fall into the background
sadly some people still act like they care
but I'm too far with sorrow.