Hell To Lovers

Chapter 14

AN: Hope this clears some stuff up for ya.

I walk of school hand and hand with Tobias.

He can't stop smiling about something, but I like it.

"So what do you want to do today?" I ask.

"I dunno." He looks at me then next thing I know I'm thrown over his shoulder and he's running home.

I punch him in the thigh, "Lemme go!"

"Never!" He yells back to me and stops running.

I lift my head and looks around to see we are at my house. I poke his neck and he drops me.

I land on my feet and unlock the door, then we both step in, heading upstairs.

The house is empty except for us.

I walk into my room and the second I drop my bag, Tobias, picks me up from behind and throws me on the bed.

I laugh loudly and bounce up on the bed.

He smiles proud with himself.

I roll my eyes and sit up on the bed.

He sits next to me and pulls me into his lap.

I straddle his hips and rest my head on his shoulder.

His arm wrap around my body holding me closely to his chest.

We stay wrapped up in each other for a long time.

Finally I speak up breaking the silence.

"Was it true?" I asked.

He raised a brow, questioningly.

I sighed, "The cut. Is it true that I just got up and did that?"

He frowns for a moment, then his face softens. "Tris…" He tells me gently, cupping my cheek in his hand.

"Answer me." I tell him. He's Stalling.

He sighs then his eyes fall to my lips.

"Yes. Its true. We were sleeping, and I felt you get up. So naturally, I awoke and watched you walk over to your dresser. You took out a small shiny object and held your arm out. I didn't realize what you were doing at first, not until I saw blood on the floor." He pauses and glances over at my carpet, where blood stains the white fuzz. "Then I rushed over and grabbed you. I told you to stop but you looked...gone. Out of it. Like it wasn't even you Tris." He meets me eyes and I can see how glossy they are. He takes a deep breath. "You shook me off and walked to the hallway closet, stood there and I was yelling at you. Telling you to look at me. You wouldn't and then you passed out. I took you to the hospital and you can pretty much tell from then on what happened."

I was silent.

I didn't know what to say.

Was I really out of it?

Am I going crazy?

Did Imagine the whole shower thing?

I look up to Tobias and he's looking out the window behind me.

I lay back, my head hanging off the bed, everything is upside down.

Maybe I am crazy.

Maybe I need help.

Maybe I should be sent off.

Maybe I should stop talking crazy and get a hold of myself.

Tobias grabs my hands and pulls me up to face him.

I look to him questioningly.

He grins,"Tris, I love you."

I stare at him for a few moments, the hug him tightly.

I don't know what I feel, honestly.

He hugs me back and the next thing I know we're kissing.

Then we're stripping.

I didn't even realize what we we're doing till I felt sharp pain.

I didn't stop him though.

I love him too.

I wanted this.

We both want this.

And I was happy to be losing my self to him.

When I awoke I was in a huge shirt, and underwear.

I was warm, and comfortable.

Tobias was behind me holding me to his chest.

He was shirtless and wearing sweat pants.

I smiled.

He's asleep.

I think over what we'd just done.

We talked about how this was right, and we loved each other after.

Somehow, I feel great.

I feel light and happy, almost blissful.

That is until I heard footsteps coming up the stairs.

I reached around for a moment until I found the clothes on the floor. I grabbed my pants and slide them on quickly, then threw the other clothes under my bed.

Reaching over behind Tobias, I grabbed the comforter and pulled it over us, hugging me with even more warmth.

Tobias stirred and I pretended to be asleep, as the door opened.

I peeked an eye open and saw my brother.

He frowned, approvingly, at us then shut the door softly.

I silently prayed a thank you and turned to face Tobias.

He was still asleep.

I snuggled closer and fell asleep once again.