I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup running down your face.
*Ashton's POV*
It's been four months. Four months since she left me. Four months since I lost who I was. Four months since my world came crumbling down to nothing but dust right in front of my eyes.
I still remember the day she left; it hasn't stopped replaying in my head since.
"Ash, we need to talk." She gently said to me; I should have known with the sadness in her tone that whatever she needed to talk about was serious.
"What is it, my love?" I smiled, pulling her down by her hips onto my lap. She sighed and got off of my lap, standing to her feet.
"I can't do this anymore." She looked at the black converse on her feet that she wore every day, shaking her head.
"What do you mean?" I furrowed my eyebrows, standing up as well to match- well, tower over her short height.
"This. I think it's time I leave." She couldn't even look in my eyes. I told myself that it was because it hurt her too much if she were to look in my eyes. That if she looked at my eyes, she wouldn't be able to leave. I was sorely mistaken.
My eyes widened, "L-Leave?"
"There's nothing for me here anymore. I'm heading to London for a little while. Maybe forever."
"Nothing for you here? What about me, huh? Am I nothing to you anymore?" I started to raise my voice at her. I felt bad about it at the time even though we've had our fair share of fights, but her words made me angrier than ever.
"No, you are everything to me." She finally looked at me, taking my clenched fists into her tiny hands. She was crying, the evidence of her tears running in black streams down her cheeks from her makeup.
"Then why are you leaving?" I said in such a low, harsh voice, it scared even me. My chest was heaving and I could hardly breathe with the mention of her leaving.
"Because I have to. I-I don't have any family here and I just think it's time I get out of Sydney. It's time I leave all my troubles behind and start anew in London."
Troubles... She meant me. We were trouble together, causing mayhem in the streets of Sydney late at night. Getting wasted on my rooftop and sleeping up there. Using our fake IDs to get into bars when we were underage and fucking shit up when we were of age in those bars.
We were trouble.
"You're joking right?" I scoffed a dry emotionless laugh.
"I wish I was." She sighed, shaking her head once again. "But please, don't think that this means I don't love you. I do love you with all my heart. But you know what they say, 'when you love something, let it go' and I have to go."
"You don't have to go." I pressed, desperate for her to change her mind, but she never did. She held her ground like the stubborn little thing she always was and probably always will be.
"But I do. You love me, right?"
I cupped her cheeks with both my hands, stroking her cheekbones like she always loved, "Of course I do."
"Then let me go." I'll never forget the way her voice broke with the last words she ever said to me, though I wish I could. She didn't say goodbye, she only took my hands off her cheeks, squeezed them gently and dropped them, walking away. I didn't know what to do, but I know now that I should have chased her, begged her to stay with me. I always said if she ran, I'd always chase her, but I didn't and I'm an absolute idiot for it.
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Yay new story! I've got like 4792832 stories going on right now and it's basically a death sentence with all that I've got started but oh well! Haha
So a lot of this is going to be in Ashton's POV and I will say when there's a POV switch at the beginning of the chapter with said POV switch.
And I know everybody and their mother has done an amnesia story but I REALLY wanted to do this and this is probably one of my better stories, in terms of writing so thank you 5SOS! :D
Now I have to give you a fair warning: some of this story is going to have some triggers and I will let you know at the beginning of that chapter with the trigger warnings as another fair warning. This is an emotional story, and I'm excited to ride the emotional rollercoaster with you, as long as everyone's okay with what's going on.
I'll stop running my mouth now! I'm going to post the first chapter within the next couple of minutes.
Love you and I hope you enjoy the rest of the story! :)
Xoxo Sabrina
