You were gonna tell him, you were finally gonna tell him. You were tired of hiding this from your boyfriend. Who's your boyfriend you ask? Hunter Hayes. Yes, country singer hearthrob Hunter Hayes. And what's this secret you plan on telling him? That you suffer from major depression (cutting, suicidal thoughts). You're terrified to tell him though the last boyfriend you had you told him and well, it didn't end well at all. He left you just like that, and called you a suicidal freak. You shuddered at the thought of that.
KNOCK KNOCK. A knock at the door shocked you out of your thoughts. It must be Hunter. You thought. With a million knots in your stomach you went to answer the door. You saw his smiling adorable face when you opened the door, he greeted you with a casual hello and he pulled you into a hug. Once he pulled away he saw the worried look on your face. And as usual he got concerned. He took your hand and walk over to the couch.
"What's wrong sweetheart?" he said, very concerned.
"Um, I gotta tell you something and I really hope you dont freak out.. um I suffer from major depression and self harm and suicidal thoughts." You say before you can chicken out but then bite your tongue.
He just sits there and stares at you. You see his eyes get all misty and fill with tears and he just pulls you into the longest hug ever and doesn't let go for what feels like a million years. When he pulled out of the hug you could see all tears streaming down his face, he was that worried about you.
Finally, he said "PLEASE stop hurting yourself you don't deserve this and you're way too perfect to be doing that to yourself... can I see your arms please?"
You hesitated but then showed him the cuts on your arms. He pulled both arms up to his mouth and kissed them both.
"Ok." he said. "Let's make a deal whenever you wanna hurt yourself in any way at all, whether it's 2 am or noon, you call, text, Facetime, somehow contact me. And if I can't talk then then you have to promise to stay strong until I can talk to you and then I promise to make everything ok. Ok?"
"Ok," you replied kinda weakly and he pulled you into a tight hug.
"One more thing," he said "I need you to give me anything you have to hurt yourself with, like blades. I'm not letting you hurt yourself ever again."
You thought about trying to get out of that somehow but assumed it was useless so you just gave him everything you had. And you two spent the rest of the afternoon just snuggling on the couch and you could hear him silently humming Cry With You. And for the first time in forever you felt safe.
