his revenge...

I Won't Let You Go

I reached my room and tried to lock it with all my strength but he got the hold of it... And he pushed the door to open with so much strength that I was on the floor as a impact of his pushing..

I tried to get away from him even in that position... But he closed the door loudly making me jump out in fright...

" I told you do not cross your line I won't leave you alone ever again.  Still you came over here now see what I will do to you.. You will see my beast side... " he shouted...

I was on the floor trying to comprehend what exactly he was talking.. I wanted to stand up and go away from him as far as possible but it seems like my senses are not working properly..
I have never seen him in this rage..
May be my running away from him has really provoked him But I just wanted peace In my life don't I atleast deserve that much..

I was about to get up but he didn't give me any chance to pull myself up he within seconds closed the distance between us and threw me over his shoulder as if I am some kind of doll.

He placed me on the bed And started to take out his shirt..

No I don't want this.. I am scared..

I don't want to be related to him in any terms specifically when he is related to underworld..

"please I am sorry..  Please leave me alone please I just wanted to live in peace.. That's all I want please sorry if I ever have hurt you "I pleaded him to leave me And started moving to the other corner of bed but he caught the hold of my legs and pulled me back to my original position with more force..
He held one of my wrist in his hand and said " sorry??  Sorry for hurting me?  Have you ever thought about me all this year's?  Have you ever thought what happend to me after you left me alone? Have you ever thought why I am back in your life?  Have you ever thought why you keep running away from me even when I have warned you enough that don't keep running away from Me. You actually can't do that still you fucking dare to disobey me?
Do I look the same old kid whom you can fool around with your fake care..  I am beast I have become beast...
And now you have provoked the beast inside me by running away from me..
I will definitely show you what happens when you do such thing.. " he shouted with such a force that I was shivering and shaking in his hold..

With that he started getting close to my face and I was being held by him forcefully...
My both hands and legs were trapped in his hold... He was so huge and well build that I don't think any of my effort will affect him..  He will definitely get what he want from me.. But I can't let that happen I don't want this...

He was so close to me just few inches away from my lips... He was about to touch my lips but I turned away my face..

"oh showing tantrums even after you are the one who is at fault But this won't work anymore I will definitely get what I want" 

"no please stop I dont want this please try to understand you are a gangster and I don't want to get involved with you please " I pleaded him again may be this will work..

" oh so now you are worried about your reputation That you will be ruined if you get involved with gangster then let me tell you I am no ordinary gangster I am the leader of all gangs..  And you act like you are innocent when you are the reason why I become like this ".
He yelled..

What he said made me shocked..
I turned my face and look at him in the eye...
His eyes showed burning fire in them..

" what are talking about me being the reason for your this behaviour "? I asked him because honestly I wanted to know how I am related to this..

"yes you are the reason for me becoming a monster, for me becoming a gangster, for me becoming a complete beast.. I am total opposite of the person whom you meet years ago..  You left me without any reason I was broken...
Everything ended for me but when I wanted to end my life I met someone,  someone who said that it was not a solution to end the life I should make myself strong enough to get you back and teach you lesson for your cold hearted behaviour...
He said there is only one way to get you back in this life time that is by ruling this world with power.. And only this field will give me power, wealth, status, Reputation so that I can do anything with your life and no one will have the capability to say anything about it..
This was the only one way to get you back in this short period of time.. 
What you think was it easy to finish off my each and every rival just to get you back And now when I have got you I need every inch of you to satisfy my burning desire, my need.."

I was sobbing but he didn't cared he held my both wrists In his one hand and held my face in his palm and started kissing me roughly..

I can't even imagine my anurag will do this to me..
Tears were rolling out of my eyes.. I can't stand the way he was kissing with force, he even took a bite on my lower lip which made me shriek in pain..
More over that he was holding me in so tight hold that I was afraid i might broke some of my bones.. 
Was he aware how much of pain he is giving me right now?  Is he doing it purposely..? Was it just my body which he wanted?
It was never love but just lust..
And I misunderstood it as love..
How fool I am..
But if he was really doing it for lust why don't he spoil someone else's life why me?

I don't deserve this..
After long time he stopped his torture but he didn't leave me..
" I don't see anything wrong to have desire for the one I love And I don't know what you think what you feel you will obey what I say.. You will do what I have asked for you to do.. " 

With that he left me and locked up in the room..
I was crying looking at the mess what he did to me...

Bleeding swollen lips, red puffy eyes,  bruises all over the hands is this what love is all about...

I don't know how many hours I spent crying on thinking about it....

Will he continue to do this things with me..  How I am suppose to live with this..

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