his revenge...

Life Turning Into Hell

I was living my life in perfectly normal way.. I was trying to forget those memories which I have with him.. So that it can make me live my life at ease..

Slowly but steadily I was trying and I was somewhat successful in it..

Today is one of the usual day.. Which has started with my aunt's new demand to me...
She has became more demanding now a days ..
Even though I give her all of my salary she still asks for more money..
Because of that now a days I have started doing over time..
I don't have enough money to buy anything for myself..
Even after doing overtime and giving her money she still wants me to do all household cores.. Making food for her, doing laundry, dish washing..
She never even once did any household chore..
As if it will hurt her perfectly manicured nails..
I know I am living in a mess but I will somehow find some way out of here too...

After her shouting and blabbering about how useless I am in her eyes.. I came to my office..

While doing work I heard a knock at my office door...

"Hey buddy still doing work don't you want to fulfill yourself with some food so that you can work again.. "

I know who he is even if I haven't raised my eyes to see who it is... Because he is my best friend NEEL..

"I was so busy in going through all those files that I didn't check the time.

What time it is?"

I asked him out of curiosity.... ..

"It is 2'o clock .. lunch time is about to get over and you are still working.." he said while smiling..

"I know but there is alot to do. I have still many files which need to be done today itself .. and if I take any lunch break now I don't think so I can finish it in time you know " I replied him.
I was stressed.. because of workload and aunt's all torture I just stopped caring about myself and my needs..
I know what I am doing is wrong but I am still not getting any way out of it .. I don't know how I will be able to move out of that apartment when I don't have any savings, my all salary and other income are getting used by my dear aunt .. so there is no other way..
All this thoughts made me so upset that tears appeared in my eyes..
I don't wanted to look weak so I immediately controlled it...
Seeing me in this state, Neel couldn't control it and he immediately kneel down Infront of me... He very gently took my hand in his warm hands... And said ...

"Sshhh I know what is going on in your life , you don't need to cry about it, all you can do is fight it back.. I dont know anything about your past life, but I do know what is happening now in your life which is really unfair so please trust me and come with me.... If you think it's not ok to stay together before marriage then I respect your thought we will get married and then we can happily live together .. please just say yes.." he said with so emotions that for once I really thought I will say yes.. but then suddenly devil's face appeared Infront of my eyes and with fear I jerked up from my spot ..

Neel was still trying to figure out what has happened and on the other side I just couldn't believe why can't I just simply say yes to Neel , why does his face comes in my mind everytime when I try to move on in my life.. don't I have the right to live my life... Don't I have the right to love someone else.. or is it true that everyone can love only one person in their whole lifetime ...

I was so engrossed in thinking that when Neel placed his hand on my shoulder I almost was about to shout in fear...

And because of my this response I could clearly see hurt in his eyes...
He thought I was afraid of him.. i don't know may be I am just afraid of myself .. I am afraid with the thought that I am still in love with anurag.. and this thought really making me insane .. I think the problem was not neel, even if anyone else was there I would have still said NO...
Because my heart still has that person.. why I am not being able to forget him it has been so long, he must have moved on but just look at me I can't even stay calm if any other male just try to be friendly with me ..
what kind of love is this .. that gives him all right to behave in all bad way but still it won't give me a single right to forget him..