The Memoriam Files: Hearts ✔

| Chapter 18, Meeting Hans

| How long can you stand the pain? How long will you hide your face? How long will you be afraid?

| Song: Let it burn, Red

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Lisa's P.O.V.

It took us until the next day to find Hans. Jorge had booked an hotel and the rest of the day he and Brenda spend calling a few different people, trying to find Hans.
Finally after we had already eaten our dinner they found an adress.
We decided to go find him the next morning.

It was early when we left the hotel. The morning air was cold and made me pull me jacket closer around me. Somehow my stomach was aching and my hands were sweaty. Whatever was going to happen today, I was nervous for it to go down.

We got into a cab and drove to Hans his adress. After almost half an hour we finally got out of the car.
Jorge led us into a building and knocked on the apartment doors.
I took a deep breath, clenching my hands at my side.

A woman opened the door and upon hearing our question she kept repeating she had never heard of an Hans. Until finally a grey-haired man with a wide jaw came walking into the hall. He studied us for a second. 'Let them in,' he then said in a raspy voice.

I stepped inside and threw a glare at the man we had sought so desperatly. Suddenly his eyes widened. 'Can't be...' he whispered.
I frowned and quickly made my way after the others, my stomach aching again by merely looking at him.
The woman led us into the kitchen were we sat around a table.
Hans came walking in and took a seat as well. His gaze focused on me.
I shifted in my seat. It almost seemed like he knew me, and it scared me, especially because I made the choice not to return my memories. What a coincidence would it be if someone from my past would decide to show up.

But Hans said nothing to me and turned his attention to Brenda. 'It's good to see you're okay, Brenda,' he said. 'You too, Jorge. But I'm not in a mood to catch up. Why don't you just tell me what you want.'
'I think you know the main reason we're here,' Brenda replied and nodded towards me, Minho and Thomas. 'But we also heard that Wicked has put a bounty on your head. We need to hurry and do this, and then you need to get out of here.' Hans shrugged off the last part and turned his attention to me and the two boys. 'You've still got the implants, do ya?'
I nodded, determined to get it over with and get away from this man. I couldn't shake the feeling that we had known each other, which meant I wanted nothing to do with him.

'I just want the implant out of my head but without getting my memories back,' Thomas said.
Hans studied him for a couple of seconds then nodded. 'For you and the other guy I can do that.' Then he turned his gaze to me and I felt shivers crawl down my spine. 'As for you...that's a different story.'

'What? Does that mean you can't help her?' Minho asked, panic sounding through his voice.

'What do you mean?' I asked, my voice treming.

Hans sighed and rubbed his eyes. 'You don't have your memories so it's difficult to explain.'
I stood up, suddenly determined. 'Don't talk about the past. Can you help me or not?'
Hans looked at me with surprise, then his gaze turned sad. 'I'm sorry but if you want nothing to do with your memories then I'm afraid I can't help you.'
I took a shaky breath and nodded then.
Hans studied me before standing up as well. 'Give me five minutes to prep.' And he disappeared in a room.

I turned around and walked into the kitchen, leaning against the sink. 'Lisa? Are you okay?' Thomas asked.
I couldn't look at them so I just nodded while keeping my gaze on the dirty dishes on the sink.
Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was Brenda, forcing me to look at her. 'Listen, I know you want nothing to do with your past. But...' she hesitated, then took a deep breath. 'I knew you, before all of this and what you did. It wasn't all bad.'