A list of the subjects. . .
-English Lit.
- Biology
-Chemistry
-Religious Studies (I wish this was optional)
-Maybe Physics
-Maybe Astronomy
. . . I'm going to fail.
School starts tomorrow. It's been half a term (semester?) since I started and I was finally on holiday again. I was free.
Then the crashing weight of going back came all at once. I have a shit ton of homework that I haven't done. That I don't understand. How can you do a homework you don't understand? I'm sure my teachers would have found a way to argue against me on that.
My problem is, if I already don't understand what's going on, then how am I gonna survive the next two years without completely failing all my subjects?
The school would never know of course. My friends would never know. I'll just pretend that everything is fine. I'll keep going to my clubs which shaves a lot of time off studying. I'm going to keep drawing and writing which shaves even more time off. I'm going to keep reading which basically takes away everything. And finally I'm going to keep living. Either way, I'm gonna die. Doesn't really matter when, right?
Just fake it till I make it. Or until I off myself.
I like the latter version better.
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Faking Smiles
Short StoryI'm depressed. I'm unhappy. I want to die. The only thing stopping me from ending it all is pretending I'm okay until even I think it's true. But you wouldn't know that. Because you never bothered to ask. *Trigger Warning*
