I've gotten bad again. I've been relatively okay since my last update.
Today, all the progress I'd made went all the way down the drain. I was debating using the knife in my kitchen yesterday but my brother was in there and would be nosy about what I'm doing. I didn't want him of all people to know. He'd just make me feel worse about myself.
He didn't leave the room until my mum got home.
My mum had booked me a last minute doctors appointment today so I didn't even have the chance to do it today instead. I'm starting to think that it's impossible to be alone in my house when all I want is just that.
To be alone.
For no one to be there to judge me, to make me feel conscious about every single little decision I make, make me second guess the way I look or the way I go about my life or my faith.
Everyone goes through a dark patch in life. But according to everyone else, mine had lasted three years longer than it was supposed to.
My smile was completely see through.
Only five people noticed.
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Faking Smiles
Short StoryI'm depressed. I'm unhappy. I want to die. The only thing stopping me from ending it all is pretending I'm okay until even I think it's true. But you wouldn't know that. Because you never bothered to ask. *Trigger Warning*
