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Chapter 16

Amanda's P.O.V

I drive to the precinct in my car, while Liv carpools with me. She still can't get into her car after that night.

My top lip quivers as I try not to cry. Blinking back the tears, I focus on the road. Liv looks at me but doesn't say anything. I feel her gaze on me the entire time we are driving.

She's silent as we pull up and get out of the car. I don't say anything until we get to the elevator. The silence on the ride up is so deafening that I finally make myself speak.

"Liv, I could help you look for a place if you want." my voice is quiet. "No, it's fine. You've already done so much for me, I couldn't." she says.

"I don't mind. Really." I insist. She shakes her head. "No Amanda. It's fine. I'm a big girl, I can take care of myself." she says. I don't believe her, but I nod anyways.

We don't look at each other as we wait for the elevator to stop at our floor. I push a button and the elevator stops. "Amanda, what-?"

I cover the camera with my jacket and press a finger against her lips. She closes her mouth.

"Don't say anything. Okay?" I ask. She nods. I remove my finger and she goes to talk.

"What are you doing?" she asks. "Something I should have done a long time ago." I tell her. I step closer to her. Liv steps back. I take another step closer to her and she steps back. Her back is against the wall.

I take one more step and lean in. "I'm gonna kiss you now." I whisper. "Okay." she whispers softly. I press my lips to hers. She wraps her arms around my waist and leans into me. I pull away and take a deep breath before leaning in again. I sweep my tongue against her soft lip and she opens her mouth.

I sit up in bed with a gasp. I look next to me and see that the bed is empty. She left a week ago. My phone rings and I lean over to answer it. It's my boss.

"Sir?" I ask. "Rollins, you need to get to the station." he orders. "Why?" I ask, standing up, and pulling on pants and a shirt. "It's Liv. You need to get down here and talk some sense into her. She wants to resign." he tells me. "I'm on my way." I reply immediately.

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I shut my car of and unbuckle. Shoving my keys into my pocket, I run into the elevator and push the button. It's moving too slow, I think to myself. I push the button harder and harder, quicker, and quicker. Finally, the elevator stops at the floor I want.

Cragen looks at me as I walk into the squad room. "Where is she?" I ask. My hands are in my hips. "Locker room." he replies. I walk away and down the hallway.

She turns as soon as I walk in. "Amanda." she says. "Liv."