My Hero (Goku x Reader)

Paranoia

A/n: here's a poem since the song has no lyrics

It's been a while

Yet I still see you

In every reflection

Every crowd

Every empty room

And I feel just as scared as before

One week later

Of all of the times that Josh had hurt me, this one easily was the worst. I had never been this paranoid before. I would look in the mirror and I'd be fully convinced that he was behind me. I'd look out the window because I was afraid he was watching me and waiting for a good time to attack. I thought that there was no way that he could come back, but he came back. He should have been gone for good, but he wasn't. All he wanted to do was hurt me, and he wouldn't stop until he did. I don't want to tell anyone about this, they'll just worry about me.

After all of this time thinking, I found myself staring at my own reflection with tears rolling down my bruised face. If my younger self looked at me, she'd be so disappointed. I always thought that I would live a happy, carefree life, yet finding Goku is the only happy thing that has happened to me in years. As strong as he is, I still find myself afraid for my own life. I just want to be happy with him, but I keep coming so close to death. I just didn't want to worry him anymore. I didn't want to be worried anymore.

I looked at the bathroom door, it was locked. I looked back in the mirror, my eyes tricking me into believing that he was standing behind me. I couldn't keep this paranoia up for much longer. I felt my fists clench tighter.

Why can't he just stay out of my head? Why can't I just forget that he exists? Why can't I believe that he's dead? Why am I so afraid of him?

I looked away from the mirror, just wanting all of this to end. I still can't believe that I didn't pick up on how insane he was before it was too late. If I just left the first time he hit me, I wouldn't have ever been in this situation. I just refused to believe that it would ever happen again. I didn't listen to anyone's advice when they said that something seemed off about him.

I leaned against the door and slid down so that I was sitting down. I held my head in my hands and let the tears flow, not wanting to make much noise. I hated Josh, but what was even worse was that I was starting to hate myself for being so stupid, for not being able to brush this off.

I heard a knock on the door. "(Y/n)? Are you okay? You've been in there for a while," I heard Goku say.

I slowly brought myself up to my feet. I wanted to answer the door, but I didn't want him to see me like this. I didn't want to speak and say that I was okay, as it would be obvious that I had been crying. I heard him jiggle the door handle and knock again. "(Y/n)? Are you alright?" he said again. I was starting to worry him, after all, worrying him is what I do best.

I figured that I wouldn't worry him any more than I already had and slowly opened the door. I knew that it was very obvious that I had been crying. As Goku looked down at me, a look of surprise crossed his face. I instantly wrapped my arms around him and buried my face into his chest and let it all out. I felt his fingers run through my hair.

"It's okay, I'm right here," he said. This was the one place where the paranoia couldn't get a hold of me. This was the only place where I felt completely safe.