Knight In Shinning Camo BK1

Chapter 19:Jessica

Blinded by the light flooding through the large window I pull the comforter over my head. "Not wanting to get up" I hear Ben's voice. Shit. Ben. Last night flooded my mind. I had slept with Ben and it was amazing. It was what I always dreamed of what a night with a man I loved would be. A night I chose to have. I feel myself getting emotional at all that has happened since I came here to Oregon. 

"Jess" I feel the bed dip beside me and the sheet is brought down to under my chin. I give him a forced smile. "Jess are you okay" he asks. I nod sitting up, but using the blanket to keep my naked body covered. Ben was dressed in sweatpants that hung loosely on his hips. My eyes widen as I don't feel sore at all. Every time Egor forced himself on me, I would be sore for weeks. I knew I wouldn't be as painful but I expected a little soreness. Replaying last night again, I remember how gently and slow he was with me. I look up to Ben he looks concerned. "I'm fine. Great actually" I smile. A smile spreads on his face, "Good. Nala is down stairs eating with Matt and Belle." 

"Thanks. If it wasn't for the sun I probably would've slept forever" I moaned out. I caught his eyes narrow on me. Ben leans forward leaning over me, "i am not sure about sleep, but I can think of something we can do instead." I blush at his bluntness. He chuckles and places his hand on my cheek, "you are beautiful. Especially when you blush." I feel my cheeks get even warmer. Ben leans in and places his lips on mine. My hands instantly go to the nape of his neck as I kiss him back. The kiss was interrupted by my stomach growling making us both burst out laughing. 

"How about you get dressed and join us down stairs" Ben says standing up from the bed. "i'll be down in a minute" I tell him. I wait until he leaves the room, closing the door behind him to get out of bed. "Shit." My clothe in my room. I move to wrap the blanket around me when I neatly folded pile of clothes on the end of the bed. I put on the black leggings, white tank, and the over sized sweater. Ah comfy. 

I head into his bathroom and use the brush he has on the counter to tame my wild hair. I take the rubber band off my wrist and toss my hair in a messy bun on top of my head. After tossing some cold water on my face, I call it good enough. I need to see my baby girl.

I head downstairs and find everyone gathered in the kitchen. Mattie is sitting on bar stool with Nala on his lap. She was eating toast. Belle sat besides him. Ben stood adding butter to toast across from them. 

"Morning sunshine" Mattie says seeing me walk in. I walk over and stand near Ben. "Morning Mattie" I smile. "Mama" Nala says looking in my general direction. I walk around the counter and pick up Nala. "Morning baby girl!" I kiss her forehead and place her on my hip. I walk back to where Ben stood. "Mattie" Belle snickers. "Don't start Belle" Mattie snaps. "You hate when we call you Mattie" she whines. "Well I like her, so ha" he says. Ben glares at Mattie's choice of words. "As a friend" he adds. I chuckle at their exchange. Ben slides a plate with two slices of toast towards me. "Thanks" I mumble. He smiles and starts eating from his own plate. 

"I told you" I hear Belle loudly whisper towards Mattie. Mattie looks at us with wide eyes then back at his sister, "Your right." Ben rolls his eyes in annoyance. I raise a brow curiously. "I'm I missing something" I ask.  Belle smirks, "You defiantly aren't missing a thing." Oh my goodness! My cheeks heat up in embarrassment. "You two beat it! Matt you said you were leaving after breakfast" Ben growls out. 

"You defiantly won't be 'beating' it" Belle says, extending the word. Ben starts heading towards her direction, but she bolts out of her seat and runs out of the room. Belle is defiantly a wild one. "Don't forget to tell her Ben" Mattie says before leaving the room also.

"Tell me what" I ask Ben. "Kevin was arrested. Also with a few other that were involved getting into top secret files" he says between bites of food. "Finally. I hope this doesn't come up again" I mumble as I run my hand through Nala's short golden locks. Ben places his plate in the sink and then walks over to me. He stands behind me placing his hands on my waist. "You and Nala are safe with me. I promised and I will keep it."

"Thank you Ben" I whisper. 

We spent the next few hours playing with Nala, then took her out for lunch. When we got back I put Nala down for her nap. 

I headed back down stairs to look for Ben. I ended up looking around the house until I finally found him in his office. "Busy" I ask. He shakes his head and gestures for me to come to him. I walk over and as soon as I stand in front of him, he pulls me to sit on his lap. 

"I would like to talk to you about something" he says. I turn in his lap so I see his face. "I know how important spending time with Nala is to you and I was curious how you felt about staying home with her" he said while watching me closely. "Stay home  with her" I ask not understanding what he is talking about. "Not working" he explains. "Oh" I respond. "Jessica, if its not what you want to do I understand. I thought it was a good idea since I will deployed frequently" he adds. I frown hearing him talking about being deployed. 

"I thought you had another month" I say barely above a whisper. "I have a around four weeks, yes. I can be deployed even the day after. When my unit is deployed majority of the time its only hours notice" he explains. I can't imagine being in the house, just Nala and me. "I guess that makes sense, but what happens if things change when you get back" I ask sadden by the though of him leaving. "If you asking if my feelings with change, they won't I promise" Ben says then pecks the corner of my lips. "How do you know" I ask unsure of this. Our relationship has developed so fast, its hard not to doubt. 

He turns me so I am now straddling his lap. "Because Jessica I have never felt like this about somebody. You and Nala will be what I look forward to every time I am gone" he says. I couldn't help but smile from his sweet words. "Oh Ben, I think I am in love with you" I say under my breath. I move in to kiss him, but he stops me by cupping my cheek with both hands.

His eyes were wide from my choice of words, but he quickly recovers and his eyes turn dark, "I love you too Jess."  He pull me into a passionate kiss.