A Beautiful Mess

Chapter 16

I was pleased enough with the decor and the way I looked. Only if I could feel beautiful from inside. Lekha looked dope in her hot red off shoulder dress and Zarine was fabulous in a black tutu skirts dress, I know I suck at describing appearances but I try. In fact each and every one of my classmates looked absolutely amazing in their dresses and tuxedos. As for me, I had worn a creamish Dior gown which I'd bought ages ago from my savings for the big day, the end of high school. It was a wonderful flowy gown, only if I could feel that good right now. We met Vidyut, Dan and Zarine's date Sameer at the flowery gate where an unenthusiastic photographer stood to click pictures. We entered got our pictures clicked and then I rushed off to see things whether things were going on smoothly while the others hit the dance floor. I was all over the place. Teachers were constantly nagging about the loud music and clothes some girls had worn and I was supposed to calm them down. Photographer was in a hurry to go and starters were not yet served. While running all over garden club school had rented I ran into Angela who looked divine.
“Kalsi you look stunning!” she chirped like it wasn't just yesterday that the populars had boycotted me. 
“Umm Thanks, you look fantastic yourself.” I replied with a tight lipped smile.
“Thanks.” she said running her hands through her locks model like.
“I've got to run, I'll see you okay.”I said honestly.
“Ofcourse Ofcourse.” she said and as I began to walk away she called out my name again.
“Yes.?” I said
I’m sorry for the past few weeks, we had to stick up with Saloni and she exaggerated things and arghh...To cut things short Josh clarified things and I’m really sorry.” she blew out some air after speaking rapidly.
“It’s okay.” I said thoroughly confused.
She squeezed my shoulder and walked away. I turned and the Diwali impact smacked me, he stumbled inside and he looked dapper in his suit and I went gooey yet again. Before he could see me, I disappeared but why was he stumbling. After about an hour I sat at the table with Zar and Sameer, all this time and I had only danced on one stupid song. Sameer and Zar were too involved so I thought of giving them their space and stood up, 
“Hello milady, would you like to dance.” Vidyut acted out chivalrously bowing his head down.
I laughed and went on to the dance floor with him. We danced on a slow song and I could see Josh looking at me every now and then. Our eyes met and he was drinking something which did not look like the punch and sherbet we served. His eyes were red and glazy. I looked away and continued swaying with the music. No more looking at him. 
“Umm, do you mind if I cut in.?” he asked, his voice different then his usual amazing one. I looked up at Vidyut who was smiling at me and shook my head saying ‘No don't leave me with him.’ I still couldn't look at him. 
“No problem man.” he said and backed away.
He took my hand in his cold one and placed his other hand on my waist. I continued looking down and maintained my distance. He tightened his hold on my waist and pulled me closer. I couldn't breathe and then the song played on, Jason Mraz filled the air with his amazing voice. He took the lead and began to sway, I was reluctant but gave up and soon we were dancing on ‘A Beautiful Mess’. He reeked of Vodka and that was getting on my nerves. What the hell was he doing, showing up at prom drunk and having the audacity to dance with me? He lifted my chin but I was focused on not looking at him. His eyes did some voodoo shit and I couldn't do that now. So better look at the ground and admire your sparking stilettos and his shoes. He smiled as my face was looking up but my eyes were cast downwards. 
“How long are you going to do that?” He asked.
“Oh lemme think, yes till the song is over and I longer have to dance with a person who's reeking of Vodka.” I said sharply.
He laughed, “How’d you know its vodka?”
I glared at him with a dirty face. 
He laughed more, “see now that is my girl, always glaring at me with those potato eyes.”
Shit, I lost my focus and now I was melting away.
I puffed and looked at him with all bitterness I could manage to pull on my face.
“What is wrong with you, Josh?”
He just smiled dreamily and continued looking down at me.
“I’m going to smack you hard now Josh, speak up.” I said now truly annoyed.
He continued smiling.
I blew out some air exasperatedly and looked away.
He pulled me closer if that was even possible and I felt his warm breath on my neck. Oh god, I’m going to collapse and then his lips brushed on my neck and gave small butterfly kisses on my shoulder. I shuddered and went weak in my knees but he pulled me up and held me. I looked at him and he just smiled. And I couldn't resist it, I couldn't and just like that my hand met his cheek with a loud thud. 
I walked away, Disgusted. 
He came running behind me and grabbed my hand and turned me around roughly. 
“What is your problem Kalsi you think you can just do that each and every time or come closer to you Haan?” He said coming right onto my face.
“Get away from me you jerk, you disgust me.” I yelled.
He pushed me against a car, 
“I disgust you, is that right?” He yelled.
“You're hurting me Josh, get off me,” I struggled.
He eased back a little and dragged me with him.
“Let me go, where are you taking me?” I yelled hitting his hand the whole time.
“Stop testing my patience,” he hissed and pushed me in his car.
He sat on the driver's seat and started the engine.
“Have you fucking lost it? Let ne drive you're drunk?” I was scared to death.
“I’m not that drunk,” he said.
“Please let me drive,” I begged on the verge of tears.
He jerked the car on a halt in the middle of the road. And looked at me.
“Don't you trust me? Don't you bloody think I’m worth it?” He asked sadly.
“And now you're crying? You think I would let anything happen to you or anyone?
Don't you know I....”
“You what Josh?” I asked
He looked out of the window once again not giving me any answers.
“You drive,” he said and went out.
I slided on the driver’s seat and he sat next to me hardly conscious now.
“So I heard you and Vidyut broke up? Is that right?” He asked slurring and looking at me with dazy eyes.
“Didn't you and Saloni break up too?” I asked back.
“Humnh,” He said.
“You now,” he said nudging me.
“Humnh,” I replied the way he did and he laughed dozing off.

‘You love him, you love him, you love him, do not kill him,’ I chanted.
I parked and shook him.
“Get up, Wake up you bozo,” I yelled.
He opened his eyes and stumbled out. Somehow I managed to take him up.
I took him to Gams. I made him sit on the couch with a lot of struggle in my stilettos. My hand got stuck behind his head and that ass did not move. I tried to wriggle my hand out, he opened his eye and saw me struggling yet again he smiled me at the hundredth time and in a split second he pulled me down and somehow now I was lying on the sofa and he was on top of me.

My breath hitched yet again and He leaned closer onto me, I didn’t know what to expect or do, so I just sat there petrified.
He leaned in closer, I could feel his warm breath and I started to shiver. I looked into his eyes and he looked into mine. Oh lord, I knew what was coming.
I pursed my lips, leaned forward into his hot body and let his soft lips tangle with mine. And slowly he wrapped his arms strongly around my waist holding me even closer if it was physically possible. We kissed, we made out, and we did something which made me ecstatic. I was on cloud nine and jumped from there, that feeling of falling down from great heights, that goose bumpy butterflies, I'd never felt like that ever before. After what seemed like hours, he pulled back and we caught our breath. I fluttered my eyes open and he, well he had dozed off. Is that even possible, he gave me those mind numbing feelings and now he was asleep. I smacked his head and lightly kissed his forehead uttering the words I should have said ages ago,

“I Love You Josh D’costa.”