Rants

Stuck

I'm just stuck in this rut.
I can't get out.
I really want to just be happy all the time but what's holding me back?
I have no idea.
I think it's all the people that judge me.
No I can't blame them for me thinking like this.
I just hate me.
Everything about me.
I hate the way people think of me.
Teachers have noticed
They see the way I'm not as happy as I was.
I'm constantly in a bad mood.
I'm ready to fight anyone at anytime.
Test me.
I just can't wait to fight someone.
Yeah I might lose but I'm ready.
I miss the old me.
I was happy.
I did everything I was told
And I wasn't different.
Is that what it is?
Is it me being different?
Is that the thing that bugs me?
Maybe.
It's not like I can change it though.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry you hate me.
I'm sorry that they think badly of me.
I'm sorry that they treat me like this.
I'm sorry for all of this.
I'm just stuck
And I can't get out
But I really want to.
Help me
Please