Rants

How

How the hell can someone love me?
Or even like me?
Or want me as a friend?
I'm such a mess.
I apologize too much
I can't focus
I treat people like shit
And I care too much about everything.
Some people act like I'm horrible.
And at this point I'm starting to believe them.
I know I shouldn't
But I do.
I just want to know
How can someone actually truly care about some as fucked as me?
Help me.
Please.