Nosh?

-Chapter 19 What The Hell is Going On?!?-

Josh's POV:

I was a little concerned with Niall's sudden request to have a threesome with Zayn, but he was verryyyyy convincing. I really have a hard time saying no to him. What can I say? I'm a sucker for his floppy headed, blonde , adorableness. I chuckled to myself and got dressed. He had gone downstairs I hope to make breakfast as I was starving after last nights fuck. I walked to the bathroom and did my hair then walked downstairs I heard zayn talking and I froze. "At least I'll get my cock sucked by you again. " he said. Did I really just hear that? I was beyond pissed at the word "again" that means that Niall had been fooling around with zayn behind my back already god knows how many times. At this point I stood in the kitchen doorway with tears in my eyes. I wanted to be mad but my heart was taking over and I was heartbroken. He had cheated on me and I don't even know if it was once or more. I sniffled which seemed to get both of their attentions. Niall looked and a look of fear rushed to his face. "Josh I can!...." before he could finish I ran out and slammed the door getting in my car the tears slipping from my eyes. I couldn't control myself and I literally was balling while I was driving. I could not believe that he actually cheated on me. I am so done with cheaters and if he was going to be that way then I didn't need him in my life. As much as that hurt my heart I really really needed to find out if I was wasting my time or not.

Before I realized where I was going I pulled up to the concert venue and ran inside. I was about to take my aggressions out on my drums and that was fine with me as long as I was alone right now. I should have gone with my gut feeling the other day when I tasted nialls ashy lips. He had been kissing zayn and probably other things. I shuttered at the thought and started banging my drums. The tears fell as I played harder and harder. Eventually I broke both my drum sticks and I just broke down crying again. How could he do this to me? He is my love! Am I not good enough for him? The tears kept falling and I laid on the floor behind my drums for I don't know how long until I heard a door creak. I went silent as someone walked into the room. "J-josh?" A soft broken sounding Niall said. I stayed silent and hidden. I couldn't face him right now. He just ripped my heart and soul right from under me and I had no nice words to say to him. I curled up tighter on the floor hoping he would disappear. He didn't. I heard his foot steps come over and stop probably right in front of me. "J-josh please let me explain...." he sounded heartfelt and broken. I really wanted to hug him and tell him it was going to be okay, but at the same time I wanted to rip his heart out and step on it. I just laid there motionless still wishing he would go away. I hear silence for awhile but then I felt a small hand on my cheek and it was frozen. He was freezing so I looked up and his eyes were puffy, his hair was an absolute mess and he looked like he had been punched in the face. Which right now sounded good to me but then bad because I would want to fix him. "B-babe please" he coughed out between his silent sobs. "I'm sorry I don't know what I was thinking. I love you so much and I just let my stupid dick do the thinking. I am soooo sorry ." He sobs and breaks down, his head in his hands. I sat up hugging my knees and looking at my broken boyfriend. He really did look sorry and pained at what he did. Then I talked before thinking. "How many times?" My voice sounding a bit more bitter then intended. He looked at me sniffling. "Only once and I only sucked his dick. No sex." He looked away again and I stood. "You can go away now, I don't want to see you." My words hopefully cutting him like knives. His face broke my heart as he stood crying and went to walk away. "Oh and you can forget about us I'm done... w-we are done." My voice cracked as I said the words starting to sob again. He looked at me one last time sobbing and ran out of the building. I heard him slam the car door and squeal the tires as he took off. I sat there broken, but I kinda felt better about myself. I wasn't about to be someone's stepping stone. I hate being walked on and cheated on and I never thought it would happen with him. Not in a million years, but it did. Now here I am sitting here with my career hanging in the balance because I just broke up with my love and am suppose to still work with him. I didn't know how I was going to be able to perform tomorrow night. Well I guess it's time to grow up and see what happens.