Nosh?

-Chapter 23 The broken road-

-Niall's POV-

I don't really know how long I've been here or what happened. I just remember seeing my body from above and then waking up briefly in an ambulance. I know I had died. I know I was revived again. What I also knew is that Josh was gone.... I went and fucked up my life by cheating on the most perfect man. I don't even know how I can forgive myself. I actually believe that I should be dead for what I did, but I'm here..... he's here..,. Why? Why is he here I hurt him so bad. I looked at him as it was morning now and we had fallen asleep holding each other. He felt so warm and comforting. I barely could even tell he was touching my skin but I knew it was warm. I looked down at myself and saw how grosely skinny and dirty I was. I wanted so badly to get up and shower but I also had worse things on my mind.
How in the hell am I suppose to explain this to the fans.. to the band mates.. to... Zayn.... I looked around the room. Zayn was nowhere to be found just Josh. Sighing I picked up my phone from my bedside and started scrolling through Twitter. My god the threads have said one direction has been gone for four months. As I continued to read deeper and deeper I came across a post by Zayn... "I'm sorry to all the fans, I'm sorry for causing this. It's now my turn to say goodbye...." Goodbye? What the fuck does that mean? My heart started to race and the machines started to go off which woke Josh. Josh jumped awake nearly falling out of the bed and asked what was happening. In order for me to move on with him and get him to forgive me I couldn't show him, so I pretended that I was upset over the one direction tweets. He bought my lie... I feel so bad lieing to him but I can't hurt him again. I put the phone away and wrote him a note.

-Josh's POV-

I was awoken by the sounds of the machine beeping and Niall being upset about one direction. He loved that band. He loved it so much that he was always the one to encourage the other boys. He was always the one to organize fun things to do with the boys at every venue. He was really good at making up fun things. I missed him so much. He started writing in the note pad. I looked at him and he turned it to me. " have u called the boys? I'm sure they would care and like to know that I'm awake?" I looked down. "No I haven't but if you'll be okay I'll go do it right now. He shook his head yes and I got up stretching. The bed was so uncomfortable but he was what made me sleep through the night. His body next to mine , finally again. I walked out after kissing his hand and went to talk to the boys.