Breaks

Just dreams

The halls are darker than usual.

I step on the cold tile out of my unlocked door and shiver.

I hold my arms close and start walking down these halls once again for what seemed like years.

I look into the other rooms as they hiss and scream at me.

I look straight ahead and see Jay infront of me.

I jumped back and kept backing away from him.

He walked closer to me and put his hand on my face.

I put my hand on his trying to remove it from my face, but he wouldn't let it move.

His hand is cold and rough, I eventally leave it there and try to avoide eye contact with him.

He turned my face to his, I stare right into his bluish purple eyes and couldn't help, but get pulled in.

He smiled at me with his white teeth and placed his lips on mine.

I hesitated for a moment, I couldn't move I tried pulling away from him, but he just pulled me closer to his chest.

He licked my lower lip with his tounge begging for entrence, but I didn't know what to do.

I then placed my hands on his hard chest and pushed away from him.

I looked at his face and breathed in deeply and looked away from his face.

It took so much strength to look away from his beautiful face, but I turned away and walked on.

As I walked away from him I regreted every moment of leaving him, I turn to look back at him, but he was already gone.

I sighed and closed my eyes.

When my eyes opened again, I realized it was all a dream. Just a dream, the first one in months. I smile and sit up rubbing the sleep out of my eyes.

I look at my scared arms and pulled the sleeves over them trying to hide them from my vision.

"You don't have to do that you know." I whirled around to see Jay smiling at me.

My breath was skipping and my heart beat was out of rhythm, I've never been so startled in my life.

I gave him a slight smile and placed my hand on my head and laughed, "what are you doing here?" I smiled at him and examined every part of his face.

"Well I told you, we'll talk later, it's later now isn't it?" I chuckled at him and stood up stretching. I could tell that he was watching me, I can always tell when someone is.

"So did you sleep ok?" That question he asked me got me thinking. Does he watch me sleep? I shook it off and smiled at him. "Just some weird dreams I guess." I looked away from him and around the room.

"Like what Alek?" I blushed,but quickly turned away from him. "Just dreams about this hell hole." He chuckled and walked up behind me patting me on the back.

"Dont worry, they're just dreams Alek." He ran his hand down my back sending shivers up my spin and he walked away.

I smiled, I only do wish the dreams were real. "What do you mean?" Dammit, I said it out loud, why do I do that? I shook my head at him and smiled, "it's nothing," I whisphered. He looked quite concerned now.

I didn't care though, I was too afraid of him asking any further questions about it. He sighed, "it's obvious you don't wanna talk about them Alek, but I want you to, but I'm not one to make you do what you don't want to." I smiled at him and hugged him, "thank you, no one understands, you're the first," I whispered in his ear. He hugged me back and it felt great to be held for once, I've never really been hugged before.

I let go of him and stared at the guy, I never noticed that he was slightly taller than me ti'll now. I gave him a slight smile and said, "I'll tell you about my dreams one day Jay."

He then smiled and exited my room locking the door behind him and giving me one last quick glance. This was the first person I felt like I could trust in years.

I smiled to myself and sat back down on my old mattress.

"Do you like him?" I looked up at the door and the girl I once saw in the room next to me was opening my door.

I smiled at her, but I couldn't get out any words toward her, so I just nodded shyly.

She giggled while walking in and sitting next to me. I looked over at her and she was staring at me with her head cocked. I quickly turned around and started playing with the ends of my shirt. "You don't talk, why?" I looked over at her and sighed, "cause there's not much to say when I know I'm gonna be gone soon."

She gave me a slight smile before standing and taking my hands in hers. I looked up at her and she was smiling down at me. "Come on, stand." I did as she told me and when I did I could see that the door was still open.

It's always been my dream to escape it here. Since I met Jay and this white haired girl, I knew that I'm not going to go anywhere for a long time.