Breaks

Breaking points

Im back, a cold concret room with a pale glowing light. It's a lonesome place, just you in an uncomfortable room with the smell of blood. I shiver and hold my arms close to me as I look around the room.

I can hear voices outside my door, but my vision is not all that great anymore, I cant tell if anyone is there. I close my eyes trying to let the silence take over me but it was hard. The only thing I could really hear was the slamming of doors and screams of others. Makes me sad it's not me. Well not yet exactly.

I hear my door creak open and foot steps nearing me ones I've heard for what seems like forever. I feel a hand slap across my face as I sit with closed eyes on my cold floor. I heard laughter from him and breaking glass behind him. I'm now too scared to open my eyes only to face my worst night mare of more scars to form upon me.

"Look at me." I heard him say, "look at me!" He's now screaming in my face and I couldn't help but let out a whimper. I heard him chuckle at my reaction as I could feel his warmth moving away from me.

I peek through my eyes to only see him whisper in Jays ear with words I could barely make out. I think he said, "he's all yours pretty boy..." I couldn't hear the rest after that. Once he left Jays side, Jay came running up to me and tear cloth off of something and wrapping it around the cuts on my arm I never noticed.

"That guy needs to go to hell huh Alek?" Jay said while wrapping the cloth around my arm and tying it off. "I.. I, yes," I wasn't sure what to say back to him but that's all I could think of. He chuckled and just put his hands on his lap and looked at me.

"Alek, we all have our breaking points. I've seen you at yours many times at small situations, but why not, at situations like this?" He seemed puzzled and I just couldn't get my words out. "Too use, I'm situations, to this like," my words were mixed up but he understood in a way.

"Alek, I want to help you, I really do, but I cant help you if you don't help yourself, now what are we going to do about that?" I never really thought about that, I never really thought about anything concerning myself really.

I gave him a weak smile and nodded. I opened my mouth as to say something but nothing came out. It was embarrassing to be sitting in front of him with no words. He turned back to the door only to see many of the other workers gathered around the door. He sighed and looked back at me with sadness in his eyes.

"You don't have to do this you know..." I whispered to him under my breath. "I know, but I want to, cause I care. I don't care what other people think. I'm here for you and you only." He said smiling at me as he stood slowly. I never knew that he did care so much. I smiled back at him and sighed.

"Alek, I want you to start writing down things that you think of. I would like to read them and see what I could get from them. If you wouldn't mind." He handed me some pencil and paper and took a step back. I nodded up at him, "ok," I gave him one last smile before he left the room to only argue with the people out side.

I looked at the pencil and paper in my hands and thought about what to write. Things stuck in my mind for a long time never to leave. I started writing words on the paper that just flowed together perfectly like stars aligning with the light of the moon for once.

I read over what I wrote slowly and quietly.

'With a light that draws you near, that you cant see clear, and I will lose my mind, if you're not by my side. So don't say goodbye to the past, it's all we have left, so now you see the light, and it's not that bright. So can you listen now, you don't need to know how. Let the blood fall down, and shall it cover your gown, nothing will be known no more, before she is born. We will go our ways, and we will find our lies, there is nothing left, so why bring a gift, when there's no where it will go?'

I smiled at what I wrote and folded the paper. I could write down my feeling before I start to break into pieces like I do. It might help, try to forget my lonesome breaking points.