Breaks

Stay till it's over

I sat back staring at a ceiling, I haven't felt so calm in weeks. They say Im not well enough to leave. I cried the day I heard that, I might never leave at this point. I try to feel and see what others do so much that I go numb. I don't find it fair that I was really made this way. A monster trapped in a useless body.

I clutch the cold papers in my hand and slammed them against the wall I cant think, I stare at the blank piece and sigh, "why's wrong with me?" I whispher, I let it slowely fall to the floor with no sound. I walk around the room and stop at the door. I never really thought about it, how many people have ever hit, cried, or bleed on this door.

I hear laughter for once in my life and I cry at the sound of how wonderful it is. I don't think I've laughed before, I don't even know how to trigger it. I let it escape from my mind as the door squeaks open infront of me. I stepped back from it as an unfirmiliar face walks in. She smiles at me and hugs me. She steps back from me and looks me up and down. Her expression changes to saddness. "You look so scrawny," she whisphered to me. She held me by my wrist and looked at my arms. She covers her mouth as she walks away from me. I really just don't understand why everyone does that.

Jay walks in and puts his arm around her, he smiles at me and walks her out. I see him talk to her outside for a minute before walking back in. He sighs, "were you happy to see her?" He asked. I shrugged, "I don't really know who she is", I whispered. He looked back at the door, "I kinda would figure that since this is the first time she's comes to see you all the time you've been here," he shrugs looking back at me.

"Who is she?" I finally managed after a long silence. "She's your sister," he said putting his hand on me. I stared at him stunned, i never even knew, she looked so young, nothing like me. Jay gave me a sympathetic smile and started to leave me. I quickly placed my hand on his shoulder. "C-can you tell her to come back in please?" I stuttered out. He nodded at me as he opened the door.

She came back in the room looking up at me frequently from the ground. "Hi," I whisphered, she looked up at me and smiled slightly. "I'm sorry I only came till now." She said, "m-mom never told me about you till a week ago, I, I left her."

She started to walk around the room slowely, "so how have you been Alek?" She said staring back at me. "Fine i guess" as i followed her around the room. I just found it interesting to watch her walk around, I liked to hear her talk.

She was so interesting, I wasn't really listening to her, I could feel myself going numb but I made nothing of it, until she started looking at me strangely. I looked down to see my arms bleeding again. My scars rarely bleed much but when they do, I worry. I held my arm and looked up at her in a panic. I could hear the door opening and many feet following.

She started to run up to me and just trying to help in any way possible. I don't understand why she would stick around. They tried pulling her away, but I held her hand and said "stay with me till it's over." She nodded, but that's the only thing I remember before I woke up. She was still there with me smiling at me.