Hidden Feelings

16.

Valencia Carter

"Sebastian?" I knocked on his door.

"What?" He replied back with an attitude.

I entered his room seeing him lay on the bed watching reruns. His eyes shifted in my direction then quickly back at the television.

"Put some clothes on."

I had just came from outside's water balloon fight so I was still in my bikini. I wanted to figure out his reason for his childishness.

"Your nigga want you in here?" He continued to be petty. I rolled my eyes, getting irritated with him.

"He's not my nigga. The hell is your problem?"

"I don't have one." He said nonchalantly, shrugging his shoulders.

"Sebastian-"

"What Valencia, damn." He snapped. "The fuck you in here for?"

"I just wanted to know-"

"I don't give a fuck. I've done a lot of shit for your ungrateful ass and here you are parading this nigga in my face."

"What are you talking about?" I really didn't understand what he meant by ungrateful. I've thanked him for everything that he's done for me.

"Exactly what I said. I've been trying with your ass and it seems like you don't care." He got up from the bed, now standing in front of me.

"Why does it matter?"

"Because I love your stupid ass!" He raised his face, my eyes widened in shock. I never heard those words come out of his mouth to me before. "You piss me off, but I still love you."

"Bash.." I was lost for words. What was I suppose to say back? How was I suppose to react?

"I don't expect you to say it back. I'm just letting it be known."

I've always liked Sebastian, that's why I felt some type of way about him talking to Mahogany. I thought he had given up on me so I moved on. Four years ago I was still figuring out my feelings towards men and I was confused.

Bash and I argued a lot so the feelings kind of came and went. I felt like maybe men weren't for me and I had doubts. Whenever we had problems, he ran back to Ava, that made it hard for me to trust him.

"You like him?" He broke the awkward silence.

"Yeah, I do."

"Well I've been being too nice for too long. I'm not letting you go easily."

"You and Mahogany?"

"She showed her ass at breakfast earlier and disrespected my son. I'm cool on her. Besides, she was too clingy for my taste."

"And she wasn't that cute." I added making him look down at me smirking.

"Your headlights are on." His hand reached up to grope my right breast making me smack his hand away.

"Don't touch me."

His eyes slowly skimmed over my body and he licked his bottom lip, "You know I'm gonna get you pregnant again, right?"

"Sebastian, please." I waved him off, not wanting to hear that mess he was talking. I'm not having anymore of his kids.

"I give it a few months before that nigga start showing his true colors and when he does... I'm gonna fuck the shit out of you." He said bluntly. Knowing that he made me feel some type of way, a smug look rested upon his face. "Goodnight."