My Impossible Love II ✔️

20

Natasha p.o.v
I was currently driving while Steve slept in the passengers sit, we had talked for a while about nonsense and he ended up falling asleep.
I sometimes wished I could have a normal life, with a boyfriend and a place I could call home but the more I think about the idea of it, the more I realize I could never have it, I'm not good enough for anyone, I cannot ruin any else's life.
Seeing Steve makes me want that, want something I could never have. Looking at him makes me realize how broken I truly am, and the change that I could never achieve.
That's the reason why I use to hate Steve, because he symbolize everything I couldn't be or have, then Sharon came into his life and it made me see that a person like me couldn't be with a person like him, because he was too good for me, and he deserved much better, that he could do so much better, and find someone like Sharon.
And that's what killed me, that I knew deep inside he was better off without me and that the further away I pushed him, the better he was, because I couldn't let him see the side of me that I hated but that I couldn't change because it made me who I was.
I was the Black Widow, and will always be that.
Steve is good, pure, fair, kind, positive and I was the exact opposite. How could two different people be together.
Why would someone be with me? I don't let people in because I don't want them to go through hell with me, I don't want them to suffer for something they didn't do, I don't want them to deal with things is not their to deal with. I was trained to be alone but Steve makes me feel like I don't have to be, and that's why I can't keep him close to me, because the closer he is the more he changes me and I don't think I could afford to loose him too.
The sound of a car honking at me brought me back to reality, I immediately press on the brakes that made the car come to an abrupt stop, waking up Steve in the process.
"Shit" I mumbled.
"I think you should have some rest" Steve said stretching, and rubbing his eyes.
"I'll let you drive in a couple of miles, I need to make sure we make as much distraction as possible" I said.
"Whatever you say" I said looking ahead to the road.
After a while more of driving Steve and I changed seats and I got comfortable
"Make sure to take the obvious routes, they will be expecting for us to take the alternative ones not the obvious ones" I said looking at him in his beautiful blue eyes.
"Trust me I got this" he said.
"I do" I said before closing my eyes and drifting into sleep.
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A sharp pain in the side of my stomach made me wake up on high alert, and it was then that I realized that we were being attacked and that our car was going down a hill, the pain of the seatbelt stabbing at my ribs made me wince.
"Remember the plan Steve, no matter what happens, stick to the plan" I said urgently, knowing there was no way to get out of this.
"I know I know" he said breaking free from his seatbelt.
"No matter what happens inside there, do what I said" I said looking at him in the eyes.
Steve has never truly seen real darkness until now and I'm afraid that what will happen in there will make him see the side of the world that I see, and I'm not sure he is ready to see that.
He was trying to get me out of my seat belt when I felt them
"Don't forget, be careful" I said before feeling a sharp pain in my head and seeing Steve on the ground with five men on top of him.
So it starts..........
I wake up tide up in an armchair, locked so tight it was hard to breath, adjusting my blurry vision, I focused on the blonde guy who was locked up inside a metal box with see through glass and tide in an armchair.
He made eye contact with me, a sign of relief spread across his eyes.
"Dear Natalia I am so glad you are awake, I thought that my men hit you too hard and had killed you, but how silly of me to think so, I mean, I'm working with Black Widow. She kills not gets killed" Grant, my personal supervisor and general while in the red room said.
"Grant" I said bitterly eying him with my most famous glare.
"So shall we start this game?" He asked smirking.
"No. I'm here to end it" I said looking at him and smirking.
Hey guys, hope u like the chapter, I'm so sorry that I haven't had time to update. Junior year is hectic and I truly don't have time to update anymore.
GOOD NEWS: winter break starts Friday for me and I'm gonna be writing like crazy to make sure I stop slacking on writing.
BAD NEWS: finals start Tuesday and my brain is dead!
Good luck to anyone that have finals this week too!
MAY THE BRAINS BE WITH YOU!
—Breee 💗