Two Souls, One Fate | CS AU

Chapter 21 ~ Take A Leap Of Faith

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Killian's POV)
Emma insisted that I take the bed tonight and she take the cot. I would've argued but she didn't let me. So now I lay awake in my comfy bed. But honestly I can't even focus on that. My mind is stuck replaying Emma and I's kiss. Over and over.

I can't figure out why she said what she said. Did I do something wrong? Does she not like me that way? Well then if that's the case, why did she kiss me? She could've stopped or not done it, but that's not what happened. Does this mean that she does like me? But then why did she say that is was a one time thing?!

I sigh, confused and slightly frustrated. I run two fingers across my bottom lip and close my eyes. I can still feel her lips on mine, the electricity coursing through me. All I know is that I did not want that to be a one time thing. I have kissed quite a few women, more than I would've liked to, and I never felt what I did when I kissed Emma with any of them. That feeling, that buzz, that urgency. It was all new.

I decided that I was going to talk to Emma about it tomorrow whether she wanted to or not.

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I am now headed to lunch and have not spoken to Emma about last night. I tried, I tried hard, but she wasn't having it. She has barely said two words to me this morning and not a word was spoken during English. She didn't even seem as into the class as she usually is. She's desperately avoiding me, but I'm starting to think that it's not just because she "doesn't want to be with me". I'm not sure what's going on with her but I need to find out.

I approached our friends and see that Emma is already there. She doesn't look up at me but rather play around with her food. Wayne, Emily and Laura are glancing at her, concerned. I take a seats and they greet me. We try to start conversations but Emma barely joins in and I'm only half paying attention. Neither of us speak a word to each other. I keep glancing over at her and one time I thought I saw her looking at me but she quickly looked down and I frowned.

One awkward lunch later, Wayne and I leave for History and he immediately starts pummelling me with questions. "Okay what's going on? What's wrong with Emma? What's wrong with you? Why are you two acting so distant? Wh--"

"Wayne!" I yell at him to get him to stop with the questions before I develop a headache.

"Sorry, I'm just worried about you two. You don't seem like yourselves," he answers.

I sigh and come to a stop, causing him to look back at me. "Emma and I...kissed last night." His eyes grow wide.

"Really? That's awesome! But then why--"

"She said that it was a 'one time thing'." His face drops and scrunches together. I continue walking and he does too.

"I don't understand. I thought she likes you, I know she likes you." Wayne continues to search for possible reasons why that was Emma's response.

"Well I don't know what to tell you other than she won't talk to me. She's been avoiding me since the kiss which is pretty difficult since we live together but she manages," I sigh and shake my head.

"Did you kiss her, maybe?"

"No, it was mutual! And trust me, it wouldn't have gone on for as long as it did if she didn't want it to happen," I say, he grows more confused.