WonderWall | Sequel to Send Nudes

1.

(taehyung p.o.v)

"hey tae.."

"namjoon.."

"are you alright? i mean today is when he disappeared"

"... i should've have listen to that man... but i didn't"

"it's not your fault"

"IT IS! I SHOULDNT HAVE LEFT WHEN I KNEW HE WAS WASNT 'ALRIGHT'" i can't take it anymore

"tae please, i'm sure he's safe out there.. please get over it. We're hurt too"

"namjoon you don't understand.. it— it just hurts too much"

"i never got to tell him the reasons why i loves him.. i never got to do those thing couples did with him! It FUCKING hurts" i cried, every single day it's like this.. i feel empty

"taehyung it's been 2 years.. please, try to get over him. he- he wouldn't want you like this.." then why did he make me like this in the first place?

"i just can't stop thinking of him"

"we'll help you heal.. just.. just come to the spot at 9:00 PM okay? you haven't been the same since his disappearance. Try to go out more often"

"i'll think about it" i flinched as i remember jungkook saying that.. he never did tell me the answer.

"okay.. i have to go bye tae. try not to harm yourself... please" I look over to my wrist and see the scars that i put

"bye.. i'll try" i ended the call. i threw my phone on the other side of the sofa couch and lay down.. it has been 2 years since he disappeared.. i remember that day as clear as day.. it fucking hurts. i pick up the note i got from that day, the doctor handed it to me. saying that he found envelopes under that bed. he gave me the one with my name on it.

this is what it read;

"hey tae, i'm sorry. but i needed to do this, my 'father' was right i don't deserve to be happy i've done so much dumb and stupid things that it can't be fixed

again i apologize, and i'm sorry if i hurt you i didn't mean to.. you're very important to me i would hate to see you be depressed about me. Please live your life freely and... don't come looking for me

-sincerely, jungkook "

i started to cry, you didn't mean to hurt me? so fucking dumb. I threw the note in frustration and i got up, maybe i do need to get rid of this stupid longing. i look around, i mean now i live in jungkooks old home.. what do i expect? for him to come through the door one day and say 'tae i'm home', heh yeah right.. it has been 2 years i need to let him go.

i wipe away my tears and try to smile, maybe i will go to the hangout spot.. i'll get over him. Right?

i walk to the kitchen and take out the pancake i made, i look at the pancakes and remember when jungkook brought us home pancakes.. i look over to the front door, i mentally slap myself. tae get over he's not coming and that's that, he's never going to come back to us. I roll my eyes and rubbed my head, "how about i just eat something else" i said to myself as i put the pancakes back in the fridge and take out some scrambled eggs.