WonderWall | Sequel to Send Nudes

2.

this photo makes me cry so much idk why
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(taehyung p.o.v)

"5:00AM"

it's too early for this, i looked at the pills in shaking hand. i slowly pick up the water besides me but due to my shaky hand i dropped the water and spilled it everywhere.. "FUCK I MESS EVERYTHING UP!" i yelled as i curled into a ball.. i've been getting these anxiety attacks ever since that day. I've taken therapy and pills but nothing works. I let out a shaky breath and make an attempt to get up, thats right. I told myself that i would at least try to build my life back up again, it's going to be hard though. i picked up the towel and clean up the mess i made, when suddenly my phone rang, i flinched and looked over to my phone.

Sigh.

i walk over to my phone slightly tripping over my own foot, but i still managed to make it to the phone.

"h-hello?" i said cautiously

"oh i see you're having another anxiety attack" jin sighed over the phone

"n-no what is it?"

"i was gonna ask if you can come into the cafe today, but it's okay if you can't" jin sweetly replied

"n-no! i can come!" i protested

"huh? Tae i don't think you-"

"no please let me come, remember i'm in the middle of healing" i whispered into the phone, it was silent for a good amount of time then i heard a sigh

"okay fine, can you start working today at 9:00AM? i know we agreed you would start working monday but we don't have enough workers today." jin explained and just nodded as i took a deep breath

"yeah okay, lemme go take a shower then" i said

"wait it's only 5, you should go back to sleep"

"it's fine, i needed a shower anyways. seeya" i ended the call, i take a deep breath and get up, time to get ready for the day i guess...

i lazily walk to the washroom and take off my clothes, as normal people would do. I got in the shower and washed myself.. should i sing a song?

"remember the way you made feel?
such young, love but
something in me knew it real,

frozen in my head

pictures i'm living through for now,
trying to remember the good times.
Our life was cutting through so loud
Memories are playing in my dull mind

I hate this part, paper hearts
And I'll hold a piece of yours
Don't think I would just forget about it
Hoping that you won't forget about it..."

i let out a bitter laugh and turned off the shower, i'm such a mess.

i grabbed a towel and dried my wet hair, i looked at my clock and realized that it was already 6AM (idk why time is so important in this book but it is)

i looked into the mirror and looked at myself, and smirked. damn, i'm fucking hot.. i bit my lip and looked down to my scars, i shouldn't be doing this to myself. i shook my head and got out of the bathroom and i looked at jungkooks room.. that door has been always closed. I never leave it open, i threw the towel over my head and grabbed onto the door knob. I closed my eyes and i slowly opened it, i flinch as the cold air from the room hit my face. i open my eyes to be met with the messy room he never cleaned up. I took a deep breathe and stepped inside.

his smell is still lingering here, i looked over to the piano he has in the corner of the room and right next to is a computer, i slowly walk over and open the laptop. It didn't need a password or anything, so i just snooped around.. i know i'm being nosey but he's not here anyways so..

i noticed that a sound file was open.. oh i see he was in the midst of making a song. i closed the laptop and decided to just leave it alone. i walked to his closet and he had too much white shirts. does this boi know how to dress himself? i bitterly chuckle, i'll just borrow this.. i takeout his over sized black hoodie.

i need to get dressed now.. i've been walking around his room completely uncovered....

oh shit. i feel completely gross despite the fact that he wasn't here but still, my dick was out at the moment-

imma go get dressed...

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(imma have a lot of taes fashion on this book)

alright.. i admired myself in the mirror and practiced my box smile, i mean i am gonna have to smile a lot i don't wanna suddenly breakdown in front of the customers. i'm eyes averted to the sweater i was wearing, this is kookies, i took it out of his closet... i mean is he gonna wear it anytime soon? no. so might as well.

i smirked and walked over to my handbag and threw the things i need in there, jinnie hyung said that his cafè closes at a late hour so i gotta start getting used to this. I looked over to the clock and it was only 7:23AM hm.. ill just go early, i don't have anything else to do so..

i grabbed my car keys, my brown coat, a scarf, and the keys to the apartment so i could get inside of course, i grabbed the handbag as well and made my way out. I closed the door and locked it as i would do, and walked to the elevator when i saw a familiar face that surprised me.

"hey"

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i fuckinf love cliffhangers