WonderWall | Sequel to Send Nudes

16.

(taehyung p.o.v)

"lalalala" i happily hummed as i wiped the tables clean, i was currently alone at the restaurant at the moment, doing unfinished chores... and to be honest there's too much i would like it if someone helped me but, jin had to leave early because he had to go back to his hometown for a few days with namjoon hyung. Also i didn't want to bother Amber and Krystal about it, so it was just me.

i breathed out and walked over to the back to dampen the towel but i got sidetracked and got on my phone hAH i'm relatable. its currently 10:56PM and i havent gone home yet, ive been working for so long i haven't even noticed. i check my messages and go to bunny's convo with me

I sadly sighed as i read his message... i'm currently in the process of letting him go. it hard... VERY hard. every night when i close my eyes i just see his face, and i smell his scent lingering in the apartment, i just wish he was right besides me.... holding me tight in his arms.

why am i like this? i rub my head and slowly blink as i stared at the message. I smiled as i started to type.

tae: i already have.

i sent the messaged as i frowned at my lie, i need to talk to somebody before i lose my head, ooo what about jimin? i think he has this week off from his idol life. i smile to myself as i put myself offline and tapped the phone app. i pressed his contact and the phone started ringing, i hope he picks up.

i waited for a while and he picks up the phone "hello?" i smile as my best friend answers the phone with his squeaky voice. "jiminie! are you free?" i asked him jimin laughed as he moved the phone to his other ear "ah, actually i'm at a place right now.." he said, hmm.. what place its almost 11pm.. oh he better not be clubbing.. i was about to reply but i heard a.. male sneeze? correct me if i'm wrong but, it sounded soooo familiar, or maybe i'm just crazy? i heard jimin hush the male and i ended up smiling "ah~ are you hooking up with someone" i teased, i smirked over the phone as i hear him start to choke

"taehyung!" i heard him shout i chuckled at his flustered behavior, he cleared his throat "no im just reconnecting with my old friend, i would love to introduce you to him but hes too shy" he says with a sassy tone i chuckle and roll my eyes "alright alright, you spending the night there?" i ask "mhm yeah, why? whats up?" he asked back, i sighed and shook my head "nah it was nothing, i have to go now though" i say, as i grabbed my car keys along with my jacket, the store keys, and my handbag. i'll just do all the chores tomorrow morning, i'm too physically and mentally tired.

"huh? oh okay, be safe!!" he said, i hummed in response and ended the call, dang i was gonna invite him over today but if he's visiting a old friend then it can't be helped, i walked out of the store door. another cold night with me and my thoughts, i lock the shops doors and sigh heavily. i walk to my car and get into it, i started it up and made my way back to my apartment.

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urg.. what a long day. i take off my shoes while holding onto the door frame for support, i closed the door and let myself fall on the couch as i always do when i get to this place. i rest my hands on my forehead and open my eyes with furrowed eyebrows. i cant help but think about that text... "you should just let him go.." i say to myself repeating bunny's text, i'm doing that.

but its hard.. i've complained over this too many times. i shouldn't be complaining, i should be actually doing it. i'm so conflicted with my emotions, i just.. let these emotions flow out rather then being strong and keeping it in. I sigh as i sit up. i have to learn how to be strong without relying on others. i don't want to be weak, if i'm weak then how the hell am i supposed to survive this unfair world, i look down to my cuts on my tanned wrist and scoff, self harm? is this gonna fix the shit i'm going through?