WonderWall | Sequel to Send Nudes

15.

MERRY CHRYSLR
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(jimin p.o.v)

i took a deep breathe as i stood in front of his house... Jungkook's house, man it sure is refreshing to say his name, i drove here at his address in a big rush, i have mixed emotions right now, i'm angry, happy, sad, and excited. i almost shaking with excitement, i lift my arm to ring on the door bell, but i hesitate, i took another deep breathe and started to rub my face, okay but wait.

is this jk's house, this is so frickin' nice i don't believe that THIS is HIS house. he was never rich, but now he owns this... i don't even know what to call it. its so big, but i don't think its bigger then mine lol. i laugh at myself and lifted my arm once again to press the buzzer (btw guys he at the gate of jk's houseu, so there like a buzzer with a camera and the house owner sees who's at the door)

(WHEN KIM TANS HOUSE IS EVERYTHING SO YOU USE IT FOR YOUR FF LMAOO, BUT ITS REALLY NICE I WANTED TO USE IT, IMAGINE DIFFERENT FURNITURE THO)

i waited as i started to fidget, all of a sudden "who's there?" i turn around to the camera and show my face, but wait, i heard a girls voice.. oh i think i have the wrong address i opened my mouth to speak but i got cut off by his voice "oh! HYUNGG!! let him in-" i started to smile as the gates started to open for me, i started to walk to the front door, as i was about to knock the door swung open by a... girl? i thought i heard kookies voice? again i tried to say something bur kookie appeared behind her as i started to smile and tear up "jeon jeongguk" i spoke out, he flashed me with his bunny smile. i covered my mouth and i couldn't hold it in, mixed emotions stirred inside of me. was i happy or mad? don't really understand myself right now, i unconsciously start to hug him

"hello hyung" his voice got deeper, his hair was navy blue, he looked great. i dug myself in his shoulder "where have you been" i said as i broke the hug and face him, wiping my tears. "um.. well when i first escaped.. i resided back to busan, and-" i made a loud gasping sound, i went to busan! i asked everyone there! "everyone said they haven't seen you!" i protested jungkook scratched his head looked at the girl that i first saw. "well lemme close the door first before anyone sees us, meanwhile ill go get some refreshments" she smiled as she slowly closed the door and locked it, i narrowed my eyes back at kook. i waited to speak until the lady left.

"jungkook.. who?" i asked as i pointed to her back. "ill explain to you over here" he said as he started to walk to i'm guessing his living room? so i just followed as my eyes wondered around the his interior, it was just as beautiful as the outside. he sat down on the couch and so did i. i faced towards him waiting for answers. he has a lot to explain but first of all "who is that girl" i whispered to him, i was genuinely lost.

"okay so sigh, her name is lee jieun she's my noona, she's also yours.. she took care of me when i first 'disappeared' she basically gave me a home" he explained, i nodded and opened my mouth to speak again "so you've been spending all of the 2 years with her?" i asked, unsure.. has he gotten over taehyung? no impossible. he nodded and i gave him another unsure look. "what about taehyung" he smiled sadly at what i just said, he looked down

"doesn't he hate me?" his voice was unstable, and i breathed out "of course he does, after what you put him through i pretty sure he does resent you for it." i said, it only made him more upset "but he still loves you." he looked up and i smiled "now that girl, are you dating?" i asked her, his face responded with a 'what the hell' face, is that a no? "what no! she's like my sister, oh by the way don't flirt with her please" he asked me with a strict face, i raised up my hand in defense "hey hey, i wasn't going to!!" he raised an eyebrow, i pouted at him. wow! i cant believe he thinks of me like that

"here you guys go.. jungkook, jungkooks friend.." she handed us some coffee and awkwardly smiled at me, i just smiled back and thanked her. "now tell me" i sipped my coffee "whats going on? people think that you've left korea. hobi and i have gone to every city, every town looking for you. if you were in busan then how come no one knew where you were?" i spoke out, jungkook looked down

"okay so, i'm in hiding, i just wanted to escape from life... i was supposed to come back after i got my shit together but i- it didn't turn out like that. i'm not as confident as i used to be hyung. i felt like when i got into a fight with my dad, i started to open my eyes. i cant live my life the way i want to, i was the cause of a death, my dad fucking hates me... i'm not loved." he smiled sadly to himself. his eyes got teary, as a reflex i rubbed his shoulders "hyung when i ran away... the first place i went to is my dad's. i don't know how my feet led me there.. but i shouldn't have gone there." i looked down at his hands as he started shaking.
i furrowed my eyes and stared at him "jungkook its okay.." he looked up at me and nodded... it must've been traumatic to make his shake like this.

"i wanted to apologize, i guess i wanted to make things right. i thought 'maybe they aren't that bad' i really wanted to believe that until i saw it. i looked through his window.. he- he was killing his girlfriend... he shot her in the head twice before.." i swiftly held his hand as he started to shake more, he clenched onto my hand tightly. "...killing himself in the head... again i didn't stop it.. i just watched him take his own life... after a few minutes i just.. ran.... i ran as far as i could.. hyung i-" he started to trip on his words as he squeezed his eyes shut, he was crying.. i mean who wouldn't.. jungkook may hate his dad but deep... DEEEP inside he loves him. i mean he is the man who basically took care of him.

when he found out his mom died because his dad threw her away, he wasn't crying as much as this. he started to hug me as he cried onto my chest.. i rubbed his back "its okay jungkook, he's in a better place now.. he... did care about you." he cried more and i tightened our hug.
i see.. you were suffering just like us... all this time we resented you for this. you wanted to run... escape i'm sorry we weren't there for you "im sorry" i whispered as my voice broke.

"im so.. so.. sorry"

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well idk if this will make you hate jk a lil less, it didn't help for me but hehe YEHET